well i had my baby! and that's all i really care about. i don't have much interest in the internet right now so i'm not going to report a lot right now ( Read more... )

i just had to throw the "before lunch" in there cuz of the old Cheerios commercial. *i am dork ( Read more... )

it's getting hard to remember, so i'll only write what i can distinctly remember, minus the thoughts or feelings unfortunately those have faded ( Read more... )

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June 21

induction
__________yup! i decided that i would induce labor, my dr. decided the date. i feel good about it and i'm really excited but here's the pro's and con's ( Read more... )

i don't understand it, maybe it's hormones, maybe it's exhaustion, maybe it's labor! haha...but i'm sick man. the subject was my actual temperature and i feel like i have the flu. when i'm hot i'm cold, when i try to get warm, i sweat cold, then i'm cold. my doc knows i'm not doing well.ever since i was little i would just play and play, go hard ( Read more... )

ok, so reading over my previous entry, i realize i am very sad. it almost makes me want to cry in self-pity. things are not good anymore! they aren't and won't be and i'm about to have a baby. i have been projecting this fucking image of happiness, when there is nothing to it, nothing but a fucking facade! in my journey to be "positive" i have ( Read more... )

i walk into my mom and dad's and no one is here! but the door is unlocked, so i let myself in and jumped on the pc to see if i had a message from Syc on myspace. i don't which means i dont know if he got my message about me working til 6 today, or if he's in jail for selling drugs at a hot club. *shrug* k anyway, i'll believe he's ok like he says ( Read more... )

i had something to say ealier today when i renewed the John Digweed cd at the local library. i forgot to get on the computer, but i subconsciously really wanted to get back to mom and dad's so i could wash my dishes and get my dad to come to my house and install the shelf in the cabinet in my "dining room." i call it the "dining room" but it's ( Read more... )

my mother takes me shopping today for Miss Codi Shyne...and i thought i would have found everything i wanted at Babies-R-Us...but noooo, not a thing. so we go to, uhm about 4 other stores and actually only get ideas! now she and i will go to Target and actually make a purchase ( Read more... )

if i looked ordinary then maybe i would have a boyfriend. i want to look like all the other girls do like with a different color hair, not this white-blonde; and a rounder face with darker eyes and bigger, pinker lips; bigger, rounder boobs; and maybe even an ass. then i would wear my tight pants with lots of pockets and a low-cut shirt with some ( Read more... )