the person that told me that walks help in this kind of condition was seriously nuts. Walks only make things worse. I don't think I want anything anymore.

How I managed to dig myself a grave ( Read more... )

I noticed that my thoughts are really lame these days. I mean simple things stopped bringing pleasure to me. I gotta have everything my way, and no other way will do. I think I'm self-absorbed in many different aspects of life ( Read more... )

So I went to this interview, and now have to go to the other one. I don't think the first one was successful, somehow my self-confidence disappeared and I got nervous, and basically I don't think I was impresive. ugh...

more, must apply for more.

Honestly,   I LOVE INTERNET!!!! It's the best invention ever. 
I also love the fact that you can look for a job not leaving your place.

I LOVE INTERNET! HOOORAY FOR INTERNET!!!!!!! 

So I'm out of job again. GRRRR. That's okay I wasn't satisfied with the one I had anyway.

I finally got 3 of my paychecks from Montana's and now officially cleared off their list :-D it's all good.

I am working on getting my documents back, and so far it's been a success, now I have to wait for my citizenship card.

Certain individual moved out of ( Read more... )

There is something weird going on with my head. I often notice myself blanking out. I think I need something to help me stay in focus. Or not ( Read more... )

I can't find a place anywhere to be comfortable. Guilt. I can't sit and relax, I can't do anything. I feel horrible. Self-conscience is my worst enemy ( Read more... )

I think I fucked up again... Well, let's add this to my long fuck up list and move on forward to more fucking up ( Read more... )

School situation is too complicated to include here...

On the other hand my experience with over-drinking has continued all the way through this week. I'm beginning to feel sorry for my liver. Oh well, classes begin 19th, so no more time to party... Plus I'm working all through next weekend so no drinking.

Damn, the apartment is coooooooold.

On ( Read more... )