I concluded my ten day leave and I miss not working soooo much. everyday was so eventful I really feel alive! or rather, even if it wasn't exciting, I was dusting the corners of my life and putting things back in place. and I managed to give one of my most special girls in the whole wide world a rainbow! right outside her house during the ( Read more... )

yesterday faccomm had a steamboat buffet dinner together and it really seemed like tuanyuan fan, I hope we get to do this more often (:  being together makes me feel young again, I remember how we plunged into our bullboy/bullgirl identity, and created this part of ourselves that we can only summon in each other's presence ( Read more... )

it has (just) sunk in again that I am going to disneyland! I suddenly have this extremely whimsical thought to audition and become a Disney character someday. Maybe not a princess but a fairy would be fun. Wouldn't it wouldn't it! Sigh, staying up to watch Disney movies till late has made me a little light-headed. -beams-

balloons of blue gold white! if I look at the little things that came together for that night, I can almost remember the eureka moments and the squeals of excitement. fuzzy intentions of "must be personal and homey", put out in words, then materialized into an ABTM promo vid, hand-drawn tabletops, tables of any-number-including-ten. saying so many ( Read more... )

I tearfully received my spiritually uplifting experience last week and it changed my outlook on a whole lotta things. and in a very long time I really felt like I found that happiness. not the bliss of vanilla icecream melting on my tongue, where the feeling can only be recreated from a new pint. But the kind of happiness like a pretty stone with ( Read more... )

This is crazy but I miss you so unbelievably much. :'(

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await Act III.

in the meantime I wish to resolve all the residual awkwardness but I think we will be treating each other differently from now on.

I simply cannot muster any love for you.

where is the all encompassing love I yearn to emulate.

recently I've been feeling like all my energy is sapped away from doing completely nothing.

fio is coming back soon. like real real soon. (: