SO!!!

[anzealbis]

SO I am getting divorced. No more Paul for Kate, which is fine with me... Because he treats her the way he should have been treating me the whole time, but oh well. At least he is treating someone well. He is in love. And I am not going to stop love, even if it took away from what I thought I had, We had eachother for when we needed eachother. And

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[shot97]

please call me catherine.

[shot97]

please call me katie. or give me a number to reach you. I want to talk to you about everything thats happening. I want to be there for you right now. Please dont forget about me, I treated you the way you should have been treated from day one. Before you were with certen people, during, after... I knew you always deserved the best. i'm so confused as to why your not talking to me. Ive always believed in you, in us... In friendship, in love, in music in everything. I want to follow some dreams with you katie. I was never dreaming just to dream, I will follow through, i want to make you a singer...more then anything, i want to make you my friend again. i love you, please call me.

you are the only one who reads my journal anyway.... sooo....

[anzealbis]

of course you want to help me through this most trying time in my life, when I am vulnerable and scared and alone. Of course you want to be the person to hold my hand as I walk the path of divorcing my husband. You are in love with me christopher. I am not, however, in love with you. Nor will I be. I want your friendship. And nothing more. I do not want to be with you romantically. I want to make music, I want to follow my dreams and my heart. I don't know right now about being able to make music together but there are reasons for that. Mostly being that I need alone time right now... Before I can pursue my dream. I'm sorry if you think this is the wrong place to write this, but you weren't online. I love you.

Re: you are the only one who reads my journal anyway.... sooo....

[shot97]

:( u don't think very highly of me right now do you?

There are a lot of kinds of love...

Please re-read.

I suggested alone time along time ago, and let you have the means to achieve that... what makes you think i wouldn’t understand now?

I never tried to stop you... I did what I thought you wanted in a friend. Cared about you, be around you with others...and one you never really appreciated until maybe recently... defended you...

I met a very good friend a long time ago... maybe i didn’t realize it then but I figured it out and more. you were worth fighting for... and if you recall... those fights... were all for friendship.

I dont care where you say it, where you write it... Hell I plan to write a book about it one day. Maybe then everyone else will finally understand what I knew forever, and what I think you do too... what a great pair we made. I never liked finding a bunch of weird words to be "safe"... i love you... take it for what its worth. Please call me soon.

Re: you are the only one who reads my journal anyway.... sooo....

[anzealbis]

i love you too