Sometimes you look into the mirror and you can't see yourself. You don't recognize the face staring back at you. You lost yourself somewhere down the long winding road. It takes time to put the pieces back together. It takes patience and understanding to carefully look into the past and rebuild who you once were. To keep searching for who you are ( Read more... )

Meditation and conversation will lead to release. Sorry is not a big enough of a word. Shame holds heavy on my shoulders. The weight I have carried all life through. I will be alright. I am alright. The first step to walking the world toward peace, is to first be at peace within your own self. "The experience of survival is the key to the gravity ( Read more... )

I live in a house. I have SSI and a Bridge card. I am safe. and I am alive.

It's been a long, hard process but I am finally Divorced. I lost myself for a while there, and I was so introverted and silent. No longer. I found my voice. And I will use it! I know that so many things have changed but I no longer feel like a victim, I feel like a survivor. I have the power to take good care of myself.I am finally sorting myself ( Read more... )

I have been hurt, in more ways than can be counted. By more people than can be imagined, those who should have protected me, those who should have loved me Instead of just looking the other way. I will not do the same. I will not be silent to the pain of the world. I will not give in to your evil. You have NO POWER OVER ME. And you Never will again ( Read more... )

I was seen, in a place of darkness. I was found, in a cage. A place deep within myself. Always looking outward, but never being where I see. Always within reach, all but me. I was an empty case, void of myself, yet trapped on the inside. Seeing through the eyes of another. Feeling every sting of pain, but feeling nothing at all. And when I was ( Read more... )

Today is good. So was yesterday, and tomorrow seems to be going in that direction. I detect a pattern? :)

Love for all who read this.

It took me a very long time. But I came to a realization. When I gave my heart away to my first love, I never got it back. And through every long term relationship I was in, I was giving love but not whole heartedly. Because I didn't have my heart to give love from. Not truly, not completely. And maybe that was the doom for all of them, and maybe ( Read more... )

Everything is always bottled up inside, because although I want to let it all out. There is never anyone to let it out too, and when there is, and I try... they seem to think I am crazy. I'm sorry for not wanting secrets. I'm sorry for the truth, whether you can handle it or not, whether you believe it or not. I am who I am, and I shouldn't have to ( Read more... )

i just feel.