Love's Sorrow Chapter 20

Jun 07, 2012 18:51

Title: Love's Sorrow
Author:aoi_jihyoo
Beta: shine_xd
Length: 20/20
Pairing: Yoosu, jaechun (slight)
Genre: Angst/Smut/Romance/Drama
Rating: R
Warning: M-preg
Summary: Junsu was aware that the man was his brother-in-law. Yoochun wasn't his and he knew it. But Junsu's darkest side still wanted him, it desired him. It was a question of pride, wasn't it?

Wasn't it?



It wasn’t time.

It just wasn’t time.

Yoochun walked back and forth waiting for the doctor to tell him what was wrong with Junsu. Junho was there too, the boy couldn’t go home after looking at this friend twisting in pain. It was late already but no one was telling them anything. Did something happen with the baby? Yoochun didn’t know many prayers or how to do them, but at that moment his mouth couldn’t stop moving hoping for Junsu and the child to be healthy.

It was then, when a nurse came their way. She was really pretty, noticed Junho; Yoochun was too preoccupied to even spear a glance to the lady. “You are Mr.Kim’s relatives, right?” The other two nodded at the same time.

“Yes, how is he? How is the child?”

The woman smiled. “There is nothing to worry about. It seems like the fetus had positioned itself in a quite painful position. We already solved that so the child won’t have any problems anymore.”

“But why was it so painful for Junsu?” asked Junho not believing that the baby position was going to hurt him so much.

“That’s because the other fetus was kicking both Mr. Kim and the child way too hard.” Yoochun nodded, yeah, that made sense when you think about it.

“The other fetus? What other fetus?”

There must be a mistake, Yoochun was pretty sure that there was only one child and no more in Junsu’s tummy. The woman looked at her notes once again. “There is not a mistake; Mr. Kim is pregnant with twins.”

“Are we talking about the same person?”

“You are Mr. Park, aren’t you? And our patient is Mr. Kim Junsu. There is not a mistake.”

Junho was fast enough to hold Yoochun before the man lose his balance. He gulped thinking for a second. He was going to be a father, that he was sure of, but he was going to have twins, he was going to have two children. Now he was able to understand why Junsu’s stomach was so huge and why the boy was always so tired and in pain. He sighed getting used to the idea. He then finally smiled. He was going to be a father of two beautiful babies. That was without a doubt the best news he had heard in a long time after receiving the news of Junsu’s pregnancy.

He smiled like an idiot.

Junho didn’t need to say anything; he could feel the happiness was emanating from Yoochun’s eyes. “Can I see him now?” asked Yoochun wondering if his partner knew about the great news already.

“Yes, he is in room #415.”

The two men nodded.

Once the nurse was gone, Junho looked at Yoochun. “I guess I should go now, you and Junsu need some time alone.”

Yoochun nodded, Junho knew that the two men needed some privacy. Now, he knew that Junsu was fine and he didn’t need to worry about him anymore. Yoochun can’t wait to go upstairs to the room number the nurse had told him Junsu was at.

He opened the door without knocking, Yoochun wasn’t thinking about manners at the moment.

Junsu was wide awake resting on the bed. He looked at Yoochun with tears on his eyes. “Chunnie,” he sobbed.

“What’s wrong, baby? Why are you crying?” he walked towards Junsu. Once he was beside Junsu he embraced the man.

“I was so scared. I thought something had happened to the baby, the nurse said that they were going to speak to you first and she didn’t tell me anything. Why didn’t she tell me anything?”

The sobs were now more audible, he was crying really hard. “Don’t cry, there is no reason to cry,” whispered Yoochun in a low voice. “Nothing happened to the babies. They are fine.”

“They are fine? Nothing happened to them?” repeated Junsu not taking notice of the plural nouns.

“The nurse said that one of them was kicking you and its brother really hard, that’s why you were in pain.”

Junsu finally calmed himself down. He lied on the bed again. “Chunnie?”

“Yes, baby?”

“Why did you say, ‘they’?” asked the man with a cute pout.

Yoochun smiled not wanting to wait any longer to tell his partner about the news. “Yes! The nurse told me that you are not pregnant with a baby but two!”

“Two? I’m pregnant with twins?”

Yoochun smiled widely. He couldn’t described the happiness was running in his chest; it was a suffocating feeling, a really pleasant suffocating feeling. Junsu touched his stomach with a confused look on his face. He was happy; he just didn’t know how to react to the news.

“Is there something wrong?” asked Yoochun with concern. Junsu nodded, but did not open his mouth. “Come one, rest a little bit, you must be really tired.”

With gentle hands, the older man helped Junsu lay comfortably on the hospital bed. He was disappointed with Junsu’s reaction, but didn’t have the heart to say it out loud.

After sitting on a chair beside Junsu’s bed, Yoochun took his cell phone to make a call to the company. Tomorrow he was supposed to go to a meeting, but Junsu was more important than anything else at the moment. Once he was finished with the call, he looked at Junsu, whom was looking at him.

“Something wrong?” he asked again.

Junsu sighed. It was obvious that he wanted to say something, but was afraid of doing so. “Yoochun?”

The other one didn’t say anything, but made a face that indicated he was paying attention. “Did you ever think of having children- with my brother, I mean?”

“Is that why you are so quiet?” Junsu shook his head. “Then? Why would you ask something like this?”

“I’m really happy, having a child is really incredible, and having two it’s totally the best, but I couldn’t help think about my brother. They will be good brothers to each other, right? Unlike me, that betrayed my own brother.”

“Look at here, Junsu,” he said taking Junsu’s face with both his hands. “I love you, never doubt that, but you are getting on my last nerve.” Junsu looked at the man with shocked eyes. “Maybe the things that we did in the past weren’t the best. Maybe we were wrong and really selfish, but you can’t turn back time now. We are together, and we are going to form a family. Stop thinking about everyone else, the only people you have to think of are our children and me. Do you understand me?”

Junsu nodded. “But-“

“No but. Jaejoong is strong, he is going to be fine, and I can guarantee you that.” With a frustrated look on his face Yoochun kissed the other man. “Promise me, that you will forget about all this nonsense thing, and you are always going to come to me when you are feeling insecure, ok?”

Junsu nodded with tears running down his checks. He was happy to have Yoochun by his side.

“Good, now let me pamper you, ok.”

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“Okay, okay, okay, okay, okay. We have the clothes, milk, diapers, burp cloths, blankets, wipes, rash cream, changing pad, toys, baby cloths- what else? Car seat!”

“Chunnie, relax,” said Junsu looking at his nervous husband.

Junsu was finally going to deliver, and there was no doubt that Yoochun was more nervous than the pregnant man. While the man check and recheck that everything was in order Junsu was walking around the living room trying to contain the slight pain.

“How am I supposed to relax? Shouldn’t we be heading to the hospital already?”

Junsu shook his head. “I told you it’s not time yet, I will go make dinner for now,” said Junsu with a calm look on his face.

Just when Yoochun was about to sit, Junsu opened his eyes, closing them the second after. “Are you okay?” asked the preoccupied husband.

“I think we should go now.”

Yoochun nodded nonstop. Everything was in the car already, but his spouse who was struggling to get inside the car.

“Chunnie help me!”

“Yes, yes, I’m going, baby.”

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It had been two weeks since the two babies were born. Junsu was now resting on his bed in his bedroom; he was really tired of not doing anything, but he couldn’t stand up for a long time just yet. Yoochun on the other hand was checking on the babies, they were sleeping, but the new parents were too protective of their children.

“They must be tired,” said Yoochun entering the room. “They cried too much before,” he said it with an exhausted look.

“It’s your fault, Chunnie, I told you to leave them on the crib, it’s obvious that if you lift one the other one will cry, and you can’t just handle both of them.”

Yoochun pouted as he sat besides Junsu. “But they are just too cute,” he said looking like a puppy.

Junsu nodded, it was true that his two babies were adorable. Junsu thought he was going to have two baby boys, he was so sure about it, but at the end he had a baby girl and a baby boy. He was really happy having them. He was also really happy and grateful having Yoochun by his side. Junsu was pretty sure that if it was any other man, he would have already kicked him out, and that was because of his constant mood changes. He was beyond annoying when he was pregnant, crying all the time and such, he thought that now that he was no longer pregnant this would change, but it wasn’t the case. He felt so ugly and fat and undesirable, without forgetting being paranoid. But even so, Yoochun was still by his side, saying all those loving things to him, making him feel like the most beautiful man on earth.

“Chunnie,” he said once both of them were ready to sleep.

“Yes,” answered Yoochun.

“When do you think we can have sex again?”

“Sex?” asked Yoochun in surprise. “You are not in the state to have sex, baby.”

Junsu pouted. “I know! But I just want to know when we are going to do it. I feel like it has been decades since the last time we did it, Chunnie.”

“I know, baby, but not now, we’ll ask the doctor next time, okay?”

The other man nodded.

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Junsu couldn't keep his eyes away from his watch. It had been two years since the last time he saw Jaejoong, he didn't know what he was suppose to say or do, it was really awkward. Yoochun was besides him holding their daughter's hand. He on the other hand was holding Inhwan's hand. Jyuliang was a really hyper girl, contrary to her brother that was a really quiet and shy boy.

"Mommy," said Inhwan in an almost inaudible voice.

"Yes, baby?"

"When is uncle jaejoong coming?" asked the boy as he pulled his father's shirt.

"He'll be here soon, baby, don't be so impatient."

The boy didn't reply but simply turned around looking at the people that walked nonstop.”

Jyuliang was also tired but she had been persistent enough to make his father buy her a yogurt. While she was drinking, Inhwan kept on rolling it on his hands.

"Are you not hungry?" asked Junsu. Inhwan shook his head without saying a word.

Long minutes after, they saw the figure of the man they were all waiting for. Yoochun smiled looking at the man, Junsu wanted to smile too, but he didn't know if Jaejoong was going to return that smile. Contrary at the way he thought the man was going to react; Jaejoong smiled brightly and waved his hand without stop.

"Oh my god! These are Inhwannie and Jyuliangie? They are so big!"

Jyuliang smiled shyly and Inhwan hide between Junsu's legs. Still smiling Jaejoong looked up to meet Junsu's and Yoochun's eyes.

"It's been a long time." he said.

"Yes, how've is been your trip?" asked Yoochun.

Jaejoong looked back trying to find something. "It's been great."

There in front of them was a tall handsome man. He looked a little bit older than Jaejoong but was without a doubt really good looking. Jaejoong blushed as the man took his hand and smiled at the family.

"Ah... This is Jisung, he is my partner."

Everyone stayed silent for a whole minute, they just weren't expecting him to say something like that, well maybe they were expecting him to have a boyfriend and everything but they never thought that the man was going to bring the other man to Korea or anything like that.

"Ah," Yoochun cleared his throat and putting a less confused expression smiled at the man. "It’s a pleasure to meet you," he said shaking hands with the man.

Junsu blinked several times and then smiled as well. "Hi, I'm Jaejoong’s younger brother; it's a pleasure to meet you."

Jaejoong did talk about this man once. He said that he met a man, he sounded really excited about him so Junsu was really happy for him. For the look of it, they were actually serious about their relationship.

As they were riding Yoochun's car (and it was really good that Yoochun had bought a bigger car so it wouldn't be uncomfortable) Jaejoong kept on talking with the pretty Jyuliang and trying to talk with Inhwan.

It was actually really funny, Inhwan usually didn't like talking with other people but he seemed to be pretty found of Jisung. That was the moment Yoochun and Junsu knew this was a really good man, and the perfect one for Jaejoong.

Once they arrived to their parents’ house, Jaejoong and Junsu walked to the kitchen to prepare dinner. Mrs. Kim didn't want Jaejoong cooking because the boy had just returned and was probably tired, but he had insisted. Junsu on the other hand was making food for the kids; they were kind of picky with food so he was making something that they would totally eat.

"So," interrupted Junsu suddenly. "When did you meet him?"

Jaejoong blushed again. "Well, I met him some months ago in Japan. He is a photographer."

Junsu tried to connect Jaejoong’s profession with that of a photographer but he couldn't really match them.

"It was... He was simply taking some pictures in this park and I was there, so we just began to talk."

Junsu nodded at his brother's respond. He would like to know more about their relationship, but he was not going to force the man to tell him about his boyfriend.

Dinner was really nice. They learned many things about Jisung's life and Mr. And Mrs. Kim seemed to really like the man. There was no doubt that this one had a charm of his because everyone was already treating him like another member of the family.

"I'm really happy seeing hyung finally has someone that loves him and that he himself loves," said Junsu as he and Yoochun closed their children's bedroom door.

"You are right, honey, I think Jisung is a really nice man and I'm sure that Jaejoong is going to be happy with him."

Finally he was also going to live his life with his gentle husband and beautiful children without feeling guilty. Junsu walked inside the master bedroom first taking off his shirt as he did so.

Yoochun looked at him with curious eyes. "What are you doing baby?" he asked.

"Isn't it obvious, Chunnie?" he said with a chuckle.

Yoochun grinned as well not wasting any more time to jump over his beautiful spouse.

Junsu never really believed in happy endings or any things of that sort, but even though his life with Yoochun wasn't that of a fairy tale, he was happy. Maybe that was what a happy ending was about, it didn't matter if you ended up with lots of money or no money at all, it didn't matter if the man you live with wasn't the most handsome man either as long as the person was happy, then there was no doubt that it was a happy ending.

He was lucky, his husband was handsome and they didn't have economic problems plus his children were the most adorable things in the whole wide world.

He was going to make sure to live his life the best way possible. From now on he didn't want to have any regrets.

The end

Epilogue

A/N: Hello *bows* I know it's been a long time since my last update, I've been really busy but now I'm back *yay* this is basically not the end of the fic there's still the epilogue so please wait for it ^^

Thank you <3

genre: drama, genre: romance, length: chaptered (ongoing), rating: r, genre: angst, genre: mpreg, pairing: yoosu

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