why i'm never leaving the house again

[apathena]

so last night really sucked. it really did. i got nothing good out of it whatsoever. i wanted to get out for a bit, just a few hours of something unusual, to reconnect with the outside world for a moment, to unwind a bit from a shitty week at work, or atleast to go out so that when i got home i would be refreshed as to why i dont go out anymore. i

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[fearen]

I wouldn't blame "getting out" cause thats just healthy... I would blame your choice of friends to "get out" with maybe?

[apathena]

heh. yes, you are right. its just funny cause their your friends too. i really had hoped they would have been more caring then they were.

i saw gabe last night. i totally didnt recognize him. he's all uber rivethead now. its cute.

[fearen]

Haha yeah, Gabe's fun... :P

And yeah, I think I can figure out who you're talking about and they've never done anything remotely close to ditching me whenever I hung out, as for boy drama, I just kinda ignored it:)

I still like going out now but I kinda like being by myself and keeping it simple now, that way I don't have to worry about anyone leaving me, or not wanting to leave when I am ready or vise versa and especially drama. I also worked at the club for a year so I'm pretty comfortable there even when I am alone. Just drink and dance and say my hello's.

[zek]

rainy, i swear to you the yelling i did at the other was not because of that guy. i was just pissed that she had the nerve to ask someone that didn't live in bradenton and who had work on saturdays to drive the person she promised she would bring back safe and sound home.

that had in no way to do with that dude, that was totally about you getting home and her being selfish and not even thinking what she was doing was screwing both of us. please don't think that about me. i honestly wanted to make sure you were getting home and that she was maybe finally aware of her actions. i probably went to far, yes and i shouldn't have made out that guy, yes but i swear on our friendship that ending was definitely not about him. i really hope you can trust me on that one.

[apathena]

i dont hate you, im not even really mad at anyone, my feelings were and are just hurt. i totally see your side of things and i understand where you were coming from. i want to say thanks for being willing to call of work and drive me 40 miles home when i needed your help. you just went out to have some fun, you didnt have to go far from home, and when i needed you, you were willing to help me. dont think i dont realize that. my being untrusting doesnt have anything to do with any one person, its just safer that way. i wont be going to ybor or anywhere else far from home anytime in the forseeable future unless i am driving. its cool.

[zek]

oh i understand not going anywhere now. i just wanted to let you know that i swear, i wasn't fighting over him, it really was just the fact that she was being selfish and you were the one who was getting it the worst. i really wanted to make sure you got home.

i called yesterday to check and make sure you were okay. it was still wonderful to see you! i'll still call when i'm in town, even though you'll say no ;)