I swear I have one of the weakest immune systems you can have without having AIDS. I woke up Thursday with my tonsels hurting. Now they are the size of golf balls and everytime I swallow I suffer immense pain. I went to the doctor yesterday and he gave me some codeine. But the dumbass gave me such a low dose that it only worked for 20 minutes. ( Read more... )

I've stopped having drinking parties at my place so there's no more beer cans littering the whole place. Plus Dustin and I cleaned the living room and kitchen pretty damn well if you ask me. And I scrubbed the damn bathroom (including the toilet, it was wonderful). And the best part is, the apartment doesn't smell like #### anymore, in fact it ( Read more... )

Here's 2 poems I wrote when I was about 14 years old that I feel like sharing with the world:

Self IndulgenceI'm the ash on the dashboard ( Read more... )

i'm feeling really depressed right now. Really empty. There's something missing. I'll be fine in an hour or so. I just wish there was someone here to help me through this.

MAN! I am so LOST! Where should I go? Down the river? Or up shit creek? Hmm, hard choice to make isn't it?

Man my apartment smells like SHIT! Literally, cuz the fucking litter box. Speaking of which I have to go take a shit myself. Toodles.

People piss me the fuck off! I'm so tired of it!

I need to lay off the fucking booze.

"The loneliest woman in the world is a woman without a close woman friend." - George Santayana (The Life of Reason 1905-1906)

Writing that letter was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I hate myself for what I have done to that loving, caring man.

I need to get out of this vicious cycle. I need to do something with my life, something productive. I have dug myself so fucking deep into a hole that I can't get out by myself. Right now I'm sitting here on my couch, typing on someone else's computer. As I look around I can see cups, beer cans, food, clothes, etc. all over the place. If you were ( Read more... )