Wow everything is insanely insane fuck. I feel so many mixed emotions. I met a boy...but I'm scared. What am I doing? My life is crappy crap crap. I'm going to California in a few weeks but I have zero dollars saved up. FUCK I'M FUCKING THIS UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

Things are looking up. I'm molding my life into what I want it to be, finally ( Read more... )

I've had a major setback. In the last 2 months or so, for the first time in my life, I increased my confidence to a level where I could feel comfortable saying anything around almost anyone. I was doing so well at work, working my way up to manager. And now I feel like I've lost all of that. I hate how self-centered at selfish I am. If there's one ( Read more... )

I'M LOSING MY MOTHER FUCKING MIND! MY HEART IS GOING TO COME OUT OF MY FUCKING CHEST!

I feel so dead, from the inside out. My life is flying by right in front of me and I can't figure out a fucking way to stop it. The other day my friend and I were having a conversation about what we would be thinking about if one of us were to go skydiving and have our chute not come out. So you're basically flying through the air with a minute or ( Read more... )

Going to see Tool May 8! As incredibly fucking awesome as that simple little fact is, it's hard for me to feel happy right now. There's something seriously wrong going on in my brain. I wish I could figure this out. What the hell? Why do I feel like this? Man, I really need a day off of work. I need a day off of life...

Or just some water would be

I haven't been this excited about anything in a long time! OMG This is fucking incredible ( Read more... )

Feeling a bit blue at the moment...I swear, I am so lost right now. Everything is spiraling around me. I have never been so damn confused in my life. Ever. I feel myself being pulled to the left while I'm running to the right. Everything is a blur. Honestly, I've never been this alone before. It doesn't bother me. It's just really fucking weird. ( Read more... )

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I'm going to delete this and my myspace. I am so ready for a change I will do whatever it takes to make it happen. Goodbye Blue Monday.