i am here

here i am

....or at least left poor kitty with a missing limb or organ.

INAPPROPRIATEI shouldn't be allowed to communicate with other humans. Take a step back.. Take a deep breath.. Take a xanax.. Take a moment.. Take a something[anything!] to calm your mind before your nerves start a relay race in the general direction of your mouth. You know they will ( Read more... )

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Today was a fucking amazing, incredible, almost perfect day. Im absolutely shocked that something bogus (yes bogus) didnt happen.

I dont want to jinx myself so I am going to quit now.

Can't stop smiling. ARGH!

Well that was a short lived yay. I knew it. They got here so fast there was no way my car would start. I mean, 20 minute wait for AAA on a freezing morning like this? I knew it was too good to be true. Of course I am the only one here, so no one can give me a ride in to work. I missed work yesterday. I missed a couple days last week. Now my mother ( Read more... )

Yup, thats what I am. Found my old journal (the navy blue one that has like 1 or 2 empty pages left) and have been reading it. I feel so different from that time, but its sad because I know I am lying and I know I make the same mistakes still. So pathetic to have proof that you have not made progress, that you have not grown and that you have been ( Read more... )

Read this...I had this fucked up dream (this was actually a couple weeks ago) and my friend Tanya was awesome and deciphered my dream for me. Thank god because this dream totally fucked with my head. I was amazed how accurate she was with the explanation.

The Dream:I was pregnant and I finally gave birth, but it was not to a baby, it was to this ( Read more... )

Exhausted. Mentally. Physically. I don't know whats wrong with me lately. I think it is my control levels being all out of whack. I need to get organized and start making lists and scheduling my life better. LETS GET ANAL!!!! hahahahahaha. Seriously though, I have come to terms with my problems with control. I am attempting to address them. A ( Read more... )

Reccommendation: Electric Dragon 80,000 V. <-----See that movie, that one right there. All b&w low budget, easy on the eye. jangly rock n roll soundtrack. Jap movie by Ishii Sogo. Yeah see it.

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