there was a release last night.
fogged vision that couldn't hold the tears back, and
our faces crumbled.
both of us.
together.
these are feelings that i cant put into words, and.its.driving.me.crazy.

but not in a bad way.

not at all.

i want to disappear

because how i ever got to you i have no idea ( Read more... )

why does having good things have to turn into a strenuous task ( Read more... )

its happening again, ill feel like i cant function. my palms are sweaty and my knees are throbbing and then theres that knot in my stomach that keeps pulling tighter and tigher. and my vision is fogged and my lungs feel weak, as if they could explode with every short and simple breath. and the tiredness that prevails over everything, from my ( Read more... )

is it possible to be wanted and still feel unwanted in the most unwanted of ways?
it really hurts.
i hate this.

this boy i know, he has a heart of glass ( Read more... )

i dont get life.

i dont get why im doing this.

i dont get why im doing anything.

i still feel things.
but good or bad, whats the fucking point?

im not interested.

do you ever think to yourself, "if i could just have _____, id be so set for a while, life would be good, blahblah" and then by some miracle, you get said blank....only to realize that everything still feels the same ( Read more... )

i have an immersion complex. my life feels so fragmented....i just need to immerse myself in only one present surrounding. i keep thinking, that must be what it takes to fully thrive. but how does one handle this? surely i am far from the only person in the world whose liveliness rests in multiple places. but living like this...is impossible ( Read more... )