I don't know what force of nature of quirk of the human condition drove me to do what I did, but it was a bad choice ( Read more... )

I wish I knew how to treat the emotional abcess that has been growing--I pursue my new relationship and am respected and adored by both of the people I am seeing, but thoughts of R stil plague me. I was so close to him for so long, it is difficult to get over not ever seeing him again. He probably hates me for ending things, he probably hates a ( Read more... )

I hope I will somehow manage to jam all the numbers involved in gen chem into my head. I really truly desire within my heart of hearts to be excellent at chemistry, but it seems that math has yet again brandished its cruel entity at me, bent upon splitting my cranial lobes in twain ( Read more... )

 I can feel the fibres of my muscles creaking and stretching to suit their newfound need, I am excited to see the progress of this body as I use it more and more. I think it is certainly fascinating to have this gift of bone and blood and skin, to watch as cuts heal and leave me dappled with scars, hairs fall out and grow back, and pain and ( Read more... )

There was a thunder and lightning storm yesterday--it was delightful. I sat in my room watching and listening and fell into a beautiful slumber ( Read more... )

Play me another song ( Read more... )

I will find what I am "feeling" for.

It looks like about fifty people fell on top of each other and were vaporized, leaving the contorted semblances of their body-forms in the clothes they strewed on my floor.

That's right, I had no part in this.

Sweet. I am up at 4:00 today, and I don't have to go vigorously exercise in the cold. I can use this time to study ( Read more... )

I think I want to paint myself like a South American Native....that might be fun....but then again I would be falling prey to the common tendency for females to dress sluttily for any reason they can find...maybe I will be an airplane pilot....hmm....or some kind of animal.

I do want to paint my face in some way.

Help me out here, internets.

Still feeling pretty sick--yesterday was the worst, today I just seem to have lost my voice and somewhat of my will to keep living ( Read more... )