I swear I had words to tell you. Lies to feed you. But, truthfully, I’ve forgotten them all. I’ve lost my thoughts, and my words because you, you amaze me. There’s these unspoken truths between us that make this all so delicate and polite. 
april 9th, 2007

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Can't stop worrying about everything.
Everything I'm not facing is eating me inside out.
And I can't stop eating.
I hate myself lately.
Sad, cynical, stereotypical.
Sarcastic, judgmental, pathetic.
Feeling down today. Not quite sure why.
I guess I expected more from being here.
And I haven't changed at all.
I'm not looking forward to leaving in a month and ( Read more... )

In a fog today. Hazy blue eyes.
Went out last night to a friend's apartment.
We chilled for a while.
Went to a pub, but no drinks for me.
My stomach's been upset lately.
And the thoughts in my head are upsetting.
Worried about money. Again.
Why do I spend so much?
It's like I can't save any of it!
I get so frustrated with myself.
Why can't I be a better ( Read more... )

It's almost been a year ( Read more... )

I have eaten so much today. But I'm still so hungry. It won't stop. WHY won't it stop??
Accidentally slept through my class today. Oh well. I went to the store and bought some magazines and a new dress that was on sale!
My books came in the mail today and that made me happy too :) So I've kind of wasted today by reading all of these new things, haha ( Read more... )

The bell jar is stifling.

That is all.

I wish I knew what to live for.

<3CG

And I'm like, "hot damn, let me make me you my boo"
'Cause you can shake it, shake it, shake it
Yeah, you know what to do
You're a hot mess; I'm lovin' it, hell yes

Yesterday ended the day with about 750 calories eaten.
Woke up this morning to 141.5, wtf, mate?
Had breakfast, which included: cereal and toast, and weighed again at 140.0
Gahh, I hate when ( Read more... )

I've eaten quite a lot today :(
Approx. 660 calories, yuck.
Crystal light, water, cereal, some bread, 3 cookies, and frozen veggies.
I suppose it could be worse. Maybe.
I think if I don't eat the rest of the day, I could weigh less tomorrow.
So I think water, hot cocoa, and tea for the rest of the day. Maybe an apple. Maybe.

I've been off school for ( Read more... )

Gained a lb this morning :(
I can attribute this to my mini-binge last night.
Blahh.
I've been up for 3 hours. So tired but getting sick of sleep.
I'm so bored at my house.
I hate it here so much.
I want to leave and never come back.
I need a new life. I need a new me.

Goals for today (as if it even matters):
-Read
-Sort clothes
-Blog post
-Writing
-1 topic for ( Read more... )

Down 3 lbs from yesterday, woot, haha.
Even thought I ate too much last night :(
Unfortunately I had brekky that my parents made me, blehh :(
[(1 piece of french toast, and an omelet)] Kill me now, yuck.
Water and tea the rest of the day and [(soup)] for dinner.

Goals for today:
-Finish 3 topics for self-realization project
-Write 2 short stories
-Sort ( Read more... )