I started writing in this almost 8 years ago..little did i know what was to come and home much my life would change. I was marrried 5 years and going threw a divorce now....im left with a handful of shattered pieces and trying to figure out whats next for my life out here in california.

Its so amazing to not write on this for years and then come back to it and see where you started and where you are now...very crazy. Good times!

erica i will be in michigan around sept 22 for my sisters wedding....do you wanna meet up?

I am drunk...wait..i think...yes i am. But who cares no one reads this...besides erica somtimes.Its like typing thoughts to myself.so im probably going to read this sober and be like...what the hell im stupid...but right now i honestly dont care and see thats why its fun to look back at what i have wrote before becuase its like why ( Read more... )

Im going to hooters tonight..yaaaaaaay! Wings and boobies!! uh i mean wings and owls yeah...its totally about owls geez.

i have determined a few key things....1. i dont have to grow up if i dont want to...just gotta pay my bills and all that business..but i can still go out ..party..act like the imature crazy person that i am. 2. blasting music makes everything better 3.love is a gift but its not like in the movies it takes work ,devotion and patience. 4.just smile ( Read more... )

somtimes i wish there was the same magic in life as back when i was 16 or 17...going out on my own was an adventure and holding a boys hand gave me butterflies...somewhere between then and now..i lost it..adapted or somthing...maybe its a phase..maybe it will come back...right???

i dont want to grow up i dont want to grow up i dont want to grow up....maybe i will get another tattoo.

Somtimes i feel as if im going threw the motions of my life but not really living...i feel like i have blinders on and am just living with what i know is safe and am afraid to take chances. If so is that a cowerdly disicion or a smart one and how do i know. i wish somone just had these awnsers and could give them to me. i just want to wake up one ( Read more... )

Its crazy to think back on my life...its like i blinked and years past. Life seems like it was all easier then...carefree. For some reason i hold on to the point that i am not growing up...i refuse to! This journal for instance was started in rochester new york in ross's apartment when i was 20....next month i will be 23...what the hell....so crazy ( Read more... )