I am the void.

-on life "knowing its neither sweet or bitter but just what it is, and so it is-" ~jack kerouac

I quit.

one of the downfalls of living in new york city is that our milk goes bad three days before the rest of the countries milk does ( Read more... )

i had the most amazing italian food today. i was highly impressed, i had a pretty nic enight out with some friends, old and new. I think this chill day is what i needed for things to be a little lighter.

i just need to make it through one more day, just one more day....and maybe it will be different- i hope it will be different.

So the alochol can't seem to keep my ship a sail any longer. So maybe when I go back to new york I'll have to try dry land for awhile and see how that works for me ( Read more... )

if i could go back to my past and have the opportunity to change some choices ive made, i just might do it. knowing the outcome of the choices that ive already made that is. I love my life, thats for sure, but there are a few things that i wish that i would have done differently now that i look at my life and see what a difference it might have ( Read more... )

"And the stars just sit there and glimmer like they don't notice how we're dying inside, and the rain still pours and mocks us in our death, and the world goes on when all the hearts are broken ( Read more... )

the days go by like passng strangers

so quickly and unforgiving

so i will live every day
as though it is my last

because one day
it very well may be

...i never want to think that I should have done something differently again

the past is just that

past.

there is only room for now.

I feel the pain tonight
in the rain tonight
for someone somewhere's crying
so i can feel

I'll paint my skies with grey until i come to believe the truth about you. My memories of happy times now all just seem to be make believe. In my charade I believe I fooled myself best, for i dont even know the answers now. Why my insite candles burns with such fury tonight, im not sure ( Read more... )