god its been ages since i have been on here... im really sorry to everyone that i have wronged.. really i am. Ive made a lot of poor decisions these last few years and i am still trying to sort all my shit out... thanks to those of you who have stood by me. for now ive gotta jet. hit me up on myspace if anyone wants to chat

So i went to j"s house tonight. It was awkward yes but it was good. it proved to me hat maybe there is a chance that we can be friends. that is so unbelievably important to me. I am so glad that he is coming around. I can see in him the same thing that i felt the end of sophmore year, and i know some of you remember exactly what that was. I only ( Read more... )

Im stoned ( Read more... )

Well its been a while. so muched has changed that is completely blows my mind. I wish everything weren't so stressful. I guess i am having a party tonight. Sian decided the other night with no input from me that there was going to be housewarming party for me. He has to work while i get to stay here and fuck around and then clean. a bunch of ( Read more... )

Fuck Everyone but Nicole pretty much. She is teh only one who well..... doesnt lie to us or treat us liek crap or use us. Becaus e at this point that is what i am getting from everyone. Why do people have to be so fake.... why do people promise things without me asking them to and not even think about holding it up? Why do people think they can ( Read more... )

well i pretty much fail. I freake dout because i havent had any time off of work. I was scheduled every day for 2 and a half weeks. i just couldnt do it. I tried to get people to pick up my shift today but no one would or could. Jim (one of my managers) told me that if noone called in for tonight i could call and take night off. I called and Jackie ( Read more... )

So lately it feels liek people only liek to really hang out with me because i usually hav ebud and a place to smoke. Nobody has any idea how irritating that is. i mean i would liek to be able to go out and do things aside from getting fucked up and without haveing to be fucked up but no one seems to get it!!!!!!!!!! ive been going crazy now for a ( Read more... )

this is weird i havent been here in a really long time...... me and stephy r here trying to figure out how to make bud brownies......... boil it in the butter for 10 -20 min. i am really high and this is really hard ....... ok so doran , ari i hope u guys are getting high a lot .... im sure u are... did u guys try to call me? i had a georgia call ( Read more... )

well shit it has been a long time since i have even been at a computer long enough to come to my own damn journal!!!! whats going on in teh world today people. havent talked to most of you but that is probably due to the whole being out of school and having a job and what not...... i guess it is only probable that i would lose contact with most of ( Read more... )

its been too long that i have been gone but everythiing i sconstantly changing. its liek once i find something stable something else decides to fall apart but as it is right now i am still pushing forward just working on staying in teh flow of things....... i dunno .... i havent been seeing some of my best friends and it seems liek less and less ( Read more... )