when life catches up to you, what do you do? is there a safe haven to hide out in until the storm passes? are there teams to help me rebuild the ruins of my own life? what have i become? what does it mean when you are unrecognizable to even yourself? people change; it's a fact of life; but like this? this isn't a change...this is mid-life crisis ( Read more... )

a lot to share, not enough time; nothing finalized. funny funny stuff, though.

Do I only post negative stuff now? I don't know...maybe that's all that seems interesting enough to post right now ( Read more... )

i am a mess!
wednesday: bar shift till midnight--then melissa (one of the girls i work with) and our manager, chris decided to go have drinks at locos--one of only two "bars" open past 11pm on weeknights. i know, i know--i don't drink. but it was fun. i had one drink...count them--ONE. it was called a royal flush and had cranberry juice, orange ( Read more... )

in a moment of weakness when idiocracy got the better of my judgemetent i sent Chris the following ( Read more... )

walking alone; don't feel like seeing people. nothing to say, so Dashboard speaks for me. ironic that the same name that is soothing me is the one that hurt me to begin with. so this is what it feels like? rejection, that is. i still don't understand. what changed? what a gammit of emotions. i even said a$$ at one point last night. i do believe ( Read more... )

wow, life is fascinating. i leave in a day and a half for Tennessee to see a boy. I am so excited! Chris and i have been talking for just over a month now, but because we've only been able to talk, we've gotten to know each other fairly well. it has just been a really interesting 4 weeks. and then this past week i put my car in the ditch next to my ( Read more... )

gaaaaaaaaa! i got completely ready to leave for class, and at 7:40am i go out to my car and my front driver's side tire is flat. by the time i would put the doughnut on (assuming i could do it) it would be missing my first class, and i am not driving a hour (one way) just for my second class--american government. CRAP!!! that means i only have one ( Read more... )

*Sigh* Sometimes boys can actually be worth the stress! Chris, the guy from the worship team, and I have been talking every day since he sent me flowers. It's been really nice. Just friends, and none of the physical stuff that tends to blind true feelings and replaces them with lust. I am planning a trip to go see him (and the band) over my spring ( Read more... )

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