It was late at night in Helsinki, and Perttu was bored. Eicca and Kirsi went out for the evening, while Paavo had all the kids at his place. Everyone had something else to do, except for him. Even his friends from the Helsinki Philharmonics were doing something that did not include him ( Read more... )

Well, I own my body. That is something I can truly say is mine. So I guess with that I can say that my talent for playing the cello is my own. But then that could be thanks to my father, because he plays cello for the Helsinki Philharmonics. He taught me how to play the cello, but it was me that had the desire to practice and better myself. Music ( Read more... )

At one time in my life, I wished to be married. Laura came into my life and we were happy for a while. I asked her to be my wife, and shortly afterwards we were married. But like with anything in my life, happiness can’t last for long. She could not take some of my abusive tendencies, only to myself, never to her. So, she left me, aching and broken ( Read more... )

Music.

Muse: Perttu Kivilaakso
Fandom: RPF (Apocalyptica)
Word count: 1

Hearing would be the worse one to lose for me. Music is life, there isn’t much else in my life that doesn’t involve music in some way shape or form. People say Beethoven became deaf, but I couldn’t fathom that. How could you play with others if you couldn’t hear? I couldn’t be apart of Apocalyptica if I couldn’t hear ( Read more... )

I do not believe in love at first sight, because love takes much longer to develop. Now lust at first sight...that is a completely different topic. There are many women that I have lusted over the first time I saw them. There were even a few guys, but we won't go into that right now. The moment I looked at them, I wanted them ( Read more... )

Eicca walked over and placed another bottle of beer into Perttu's hand, then sat down next to his younger band mate. It was a cold night in Finland, and for some reason unknown to either of them, they decided to sit on the steps outside ( Read more... )

Um…I don’t believe I have a predetermined role. That would mean that I was destined to play the cello, etc etc, yadda yadda… I mean, I’m just a musician, nothing more, nothing less. Is it predetermined that I live this way, well, I don’t think I can answer that. Gods can, humans can’t ( Read more... )

If you were to ask me that a few years ago, I would have said yes. There were very good reasons to get blindly drunk. I seemed to be in a constant state of drunkenness. Which wasn’t good for the tour, me being drunk all the time ( Read more... )