hello everyone... i have changed my livejournal to justifydenial..

wow ive just been so busy lately that i havn't been able to write on here. i got another job at apple bees working fry side and it is really tiring... expecially since i still work at smokey bones... this week i work monday, fri, sat and sun at smokeys and monday tues, wed, thurs and sun at applee bees.. so monday sucked working ALL day and so will ( Read more... )

DIPSET BIRD GANG... ALL DAY BABY!!

Yay! so i got up yesterday having had this strang dream.. i was like introducing someone to all of my past birds...? umm okay.. anyways, so i ate breakfast and  decided to run a few errands. i ended up going to the pet store and buying this beautiful baby birdie.. heh. awe but he is so cute.. i will take pics later... oh wait i have a few from the ( Read more... )

Damn this vulnerability

So easily persuaded

So naive am i

To get down on my knees

If I am what you say I am

Then I must be a coward

Afraid that it will slip out of grasp

So I choose to hold it tight

Drowning in my sorrow

You point and laugh at me

But I am so afraid to lose it

So I stand naked and in shame

Taking it all in my responsibility

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I see you through the trees, through the window

In your room, in your deepest thought

You are moving, never resting your soul

Throughout the night you reach for me

I reach for you as well

But you don’t know where I am

When you lay your head to rest

You wish you could find me

Sometimes at night, I watch you, watching her

Watching her sleep

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Sometimes I miss home. But it’s the past and I swore I’d never go back to the reason I came here. I never want to see myself as miserable as I was. Even though I was with someone I was as lonely as ever. I had never felt the touch of someone who really loved me or enjoyed lying in bed, cuddling and fighting over blankets. I spent eighteen years ( Read more... )

okay... i decided to quit smoking again. Dana is my biggest influence. i feel like i am hiding things from her when i smoke... coming home with a mint in my mouth, windows down airing out my car, removing my sweatshirt so she couldn't smell the smoke... but.. she always knew. more dissapointment ( Read more... )

i read Melissa's live journal and was like wow i really hope she invites me to the gay skate... and then she did.. Yay! it wasn't too bad. kinda was having anxiety for a little bit there. some girl said hi and i said i was Amber and apparently she is good friends with Sam.. a girl i work with. it was all pretty strange for me. i played the push ( Read more... )

ya know... i really miss my friends that i don't get to see anymore... :(