this is the bottom. the inevitable end of this drawn out fall. no big mistake. no abrupt betrayal. a downward spiral of my own doing. this wicked game is growing old. to blame for my lack of love. my lack of care for all in life, and even life its self. so now i love only to pass the time until i die. my world, the small scratch which has doomed ( Read more... )

i cant cry with tears,so i cry with my blood. drop by drop my pain falls away from me and into small red stain on the pretty white carpet. i feel it slowly slip away, the great relif inside. one by one the drops splatter on the floor, setting me free. then as time goes by, it all bottles up, i look composed,im being torn apart. it fills upinside ( Read more... )

here. but so far away. amazing. the memory makes me tremble. something so simple. gone so terribly wrong. with one loud crash to the ground. i never want to get up. i never want to face what has happened. each day i find a new and exciting way to ruin my life. i should have seen this one coming.

your love built me up on this pedestal, your betrayal is this noose in my hand. each step you take away from me tightens the coarse rope around the soft skin of my neck. and yet you just keep walking away with out so much as a glance back. i wonder how much more of this i can stand. and now as you wander out of sight, i take my fatal step, and ( Read more... )

the betrayal was bitter.my revenge will be sweet. i burn you alive with my vengance. one solom tear falls into your remains. from your ashes i am reborn and all my wounds are healed. my scars are all the remain of the memories we once shared. though in time even they will fade and you will be nothing more then a wast of time in my past.

figured me out, have you? you know nothing, nothing except what i've let you. i dont know what i want? oh but i do. i know all too well. i know for once i want to not get hurt. i want to just once be the one in controll. and now as my life is spiraling out of controll how could you expect me to know which way is up? just be happy isint an option ( Read more... )

i had a dream last night. in my dream things were the way they were before. why cant we jsut go back. you can save me, save me from this fate. this fate of misery. its all on you. but i know what will happen. i know it will never be the same. we will never be back like we were. you betrayed me. you bitch. i still love you tho. and i always will. ( Read more... )

i stand alone. cigarette pressed between my lips. i watch the snow fall from the heavens. with each flake that hits the ground another piece of my world crumbles. in this beautiful day, how can people be so ugly? a single flake lands on my eye. i go blind. i am blind to the beauty of the day and so now i am left only with my hate.

i sit alone each night. i think of the past. people who have come and gone. the ones who have left me behind. and i wonder, do they even remember me. i walk past the people who i once called my best freinds, they look right through me. i cant help but wonder if they remember i was ever there. then i think, was i? or was it all just story in my head ( Read more... )

i am a hopeless romantic, but isint everyone ( Read more... )