Seven Months

[apostate_96]

A couple things hit me today. The ifrst was that it's been seven months since the police were at my door to tell me Ariel's body was found. It's hard to believe it's been that long already. In some ways, it feels like it's been longer than that, something like 647 years. On the other hand, it doesn't feel like it's been that long at all. That'

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Wow...

[gythiawulfie]

It does not feel like seven months have passed. And the ring thing. yeah. It's because it is a solid piece of evidence of something that was once there, that is no longer there. I still go to fiddle with my ring, and it has been 10 months just about. I can't tell you when that will stop. It does, eventually. It did after the divorce.

Sorry to hear about work. Been there, done that, and there isn't much one can do when they are in a situation like that. Even looking for work can be an iffy proposition, because depending on the severity of a situation, if they know you're looking, they'll drop you without warning.

I think you may be right on waiting till her birthday to scatter her ashes. That may be more fitting.

Many hugs.

Re: Wow...

[apostate_96]

Yeah, it's odd. In some ways, it doesn't feel like it's been anywhere near seven months. On the other hand, it sometimes feels like it's been a lot longer. Einstein's relativity theory is probably jumping up and down, laughing and pointing at me right now. I'm hopeful that it'll pass eventually. In the meantime, I ended up picking up another ring to wear on my left middle finger. It gives me something else to fiddle with so I don't get the same kinds of reminders. The only time it doesn't work is when I take it off and then go to put it back on....and slip it onto my ring finger.

For work, I learned awhile ago to keep the search quiet until you've got something solid to go to. Then again, I also learned to not quit one job 'til you've got another confirmed. Some people are cool and respectful. Others....well...not so much.

Her birthday is feeling more and more like the right time.

Thank you. Thank you very, very much.

Re: You're Welcome

[gythiawulfie]

Einstein was a brilliant man, but sometimes I also think he had things backwards. But, then again, I think I am getting younger not older, I have more temper tantrums mentally of the "Don't Wanna".

I bought a different ring to wear on my ring finger. It's a wolf's head. Rather large. Kinda Hard to mistake it for anything else other than what it is. But I still get to fiddling with that ring too if I am not caref.

Re: You're Welcome

[gythiawulfie]

Getting younger is a good thing. Especially when it comes with feeling younger. I'd hope to someday be feeling something like that myself. I'd take the temper tantrums, if that's what's got to happen.

I'm glad you found something that works for you. I've overall been glad I picked up this new ring. It's comfortable, and it's something easy to fiddle with. The only problem I've had with it has been when I've taken it off and then gone to put it back on again. The old reflex of putting a ring back on my ring finger keeps kicking in, and I have to pay attention to put it on my middle finger instead. Several times, it's been taking it off my ring finger to put it back. Hopefully that'll change fairly soon.