Oh God, my head. I am never drinking again.

OK! I am ready to stop missing Sean already! It's been over a month and I'm still in love with him and I hate it, I hate it, why can't I get this person out of my system? Oh gods of the brokenhearted, how about some freakin' mercy here? Move me on already!!

Someone's coming! Act like a cat.

I dreamed last night that Sean and I had decided to spend one more night together.  We were in this room at a fancy hotel and it was all very candlelit and romantic and he was about to kiss me, when suddenly I felt this strange feeling in my mouth and one of my teeth fell out.  I spit it out into my hand and it was like that caused a chain reaction ( Read more... )

I just practiced my pieces for the Astronomy Department Musical Soiree and I actually sound pretty good.  I sucked a lot at first, but every time I do them I think I'm improving, and today I had a really good day.  If I sing as well at the actual performance as I did today, I'll be happy with myself.  I'm learning how to sing again!  It feels good.

Today I was trying to balance a plate of sushi against the wall while flicking off the light switch with my nose, and I dropped the plate. Cleaning soy sauce splatters off your walls, floor, and refrigerator is not an activity I would recommend to anyone seeking inner peace.

last night, inexplicably, i woke up completely at three a.m., and didn't get back to sleep till five-thirty.  somewhere in those two and a half hours, i decided (again) that i need to take better care of my body.  i mean, the whole point of yoga and all that is the mind-body connection, right?  and right now my mind/heart/soul/etc. is not in the ( Read more... )

This afternoon I went to Espresso Royale to have coffee with Tony, and I got a latte, and there, in the pattern of foam on the top, was clearly: a heart.  It looked like this:


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Why do we hang on so desperately and determinedly to parts of our lives that are over, relationships we know won't work?  Why is it so hard to let go?  My friend Nicki says I need to focus on the future, that I'll meet other people who are better suited to me, all that, etc.  But it just doesn't seem real to me.  I can't imagine myself with anyone ( Read more... )

Today I rented a black Ford Focus and drove two and a half hours northwest to visit my best friend from high school. She and her husband are working as farm apprentices on this little six-acre organic farm in Conway, Mass, which is about five miles north of the middle of nowhere. They live in a tiny little one-room cabin in the woods with only ( Read more... )