I miss my grandma so much it’s unbearable. I wasted so much time thinking there would always be more. I feel like I let her down and that she thinks I abandoned her because I couldn’t get out to Indiana as often as I wanted to. I can’t handle the fake sympathy. I can’t handle the fact that no one cares. I can’t handle feeling like this anymore ( Read more... )

Debating on giving this journal to auggie. I think it would be cute for her to take over it someday. She's almost the age now I was when I got it. Not sure if she would use it though.

Been with ryan eleven years now.
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once again gonna try and stay on top of this. i don't want to lose 14 years of entries that i can let my children read one day and say oh my god my mom was weird.

went up to zanesville this weekend. this is the second weekend in a row. we went up to celebrate kyla's birthday and to go to the forest of fright in philo. i had a really good time at mom's house. she made us dinner like she always does and it was delicious. of course baked steak is always delicious. after dinner we played some football out ( Read more... )

i never thought that i could have had such a fantastic weekend with meghan. but i really did. she made me a little mad and hurt my feeling a little bit on the way out here but she apologized for it once she got here. first i got to show her around work and introduce her to all my coworkers and they were amazed at how much we looked alike. the ( Read more... )

just spent almost an hour reading back through old posts. i notice that one reoccurring statement is that my dad and i were always fighting over something. i'm glad that things have gotten better between the two of us but they are still no where near where i would like them to be. i guess that for my entire life i will just always feel like i ( Read more... )

meghan is supposed to be here in a couple of days. its the first time that she has been here since my wedding more than two years ago and before that i don't know how long its been. i'm not even sure she's ever been to my house. speaking of the house i have been frantic trying to keep it clean for her. i just feel like if the house isn't ( Read more... )

time to break my silence for a very important announcement. friday april 27th i gave birth to my second child. a very tall little boy named kaleb ryan buckley who came into the world 22 inches tall and weighing 8lb 4oz. he is doing fine and auggie is loving being a big sister.

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This is really freaky. Let the "End of the world" shit start now!

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