dear lord whom I love so much,
the text says something about being asleep in a meadow, but I read asleep as upside-down. found upside-down in a meadow, can you imagine? not on earth.

this is the difference between smoke and vapor: you can capture smoke on film against a dark background by angling the light properly, as it is composed of many small particles that reflect. you cannot capture vapor the same way-- even when colored, like violet iodine. the only way to see it is by how it absorbs light coming toward you from a ( Read more... )

I am afraid. I didn't think I was afraid of anything for a long time. It's easy to be brave when you don't perceive the things you stand to lose. It's easy to be brave when you're lost, too, because there's nothing you can really do about being lost except keep going until you recognize your surroundings or stop and ask directions. Of course, the ( Read more... )

dear neil ( Read more... )

dear mister duke ( Read more... )

i wonder how many times this account has been ( Read more... )

so, also. it is here then that people come to live ( Read more... )

my back has hurt since you told me your back hurts, right in the same spot between the shoulder blades.

yesterday i watched a young girl, maybe about 4 or 5 years old, wander through the restaurant with her mother asking whether various things nailed to the wall and ceiling were "real." "is this real?" and her mother said "yes, that's real," not with any notable air of patience or the holiness of motherhood, just "yes, that's real." and her daughter ( Read more... )

though time seems to stop occasionally, everything is in fact moving along. a broken subway ride felt like days, but it was only minutes. everyone around me looked very calm. i simply turned the volume up in my headphones, feeling that anxiety caused by prolonged and unexpected stillness. perhaps everyone else was playing as i was, pretending with ( Read more... )