the real world is scary, i know. i am trying to deal with it as head-on as i can though, or else it's just like the dust bunnies under the bed... they grow into monsters!
i´m going to have a chance to change my life (not everybody is given an opportunity) it scares me but it is even more scary the possibility that i won´t be able to make it happen
that's wonderful. i hope things work out for you. wise men have said something along the lines of this: even when you are given an opportunity to make something happen, & it seems to you as if you've failed to fulfill your task , if you gave it your best shot, really, that's all that matters.
i just want to say that that wise men... that wise man was leonard cohen. and maybe carl jung said it a little bit too, but he threw in a tree metaphor somewhere, and leonard didn't. but still, both, wise, wise, wise
i can't believe yer gettin hitched, jeanie. i'd be so afraid! my last beau asked me to marry him all the time, and i always said no. and even now, he still asks, and i still say no, and it's funny because i won't even sleep over at his house and he knows we're not 2gether like that anymo'... so....why do i spill all these beans, maybe just because if we all spill our beans the world would be brighter, happier, tastier...
I am ready to go back to Japan already. I feel like I don't know what I'm doing anymore with the pictures, or I don't know what they're supposed to mean. It seems like it used to not matter so much, so I don't know why I should be so paralyzed by confusion. The uncertainty makes me not want to take pictures at all anymore, so mostly I don't. Yesterday I ate some oatmeal, a banana, an apple, and a cup of cottage cheese. After work I bought INLAND EMPIRE on DVD. I went home and put it on and went to sleep on top of the covers and waited for the freak-out, which came with much commotion sometime in the middle of the night. I had a dream about a girl, but I'm not sure who she was. She crawled around on top of me while I lay perfectly still (on top of the covers). Then I dreamed I was some kind of large cat, from like the jungle or something. I am an older man.
i like this story of your life. i appreciate you sharing. let's not be ants. i'd write more, but i'm tired. i had a long day.
maybe i'll write just a little more. i woke up, transferred bowie albums to my ipod, had some raisin bran, biked to work, felt totally awesome&beauty-full, & was only disheartened when i discovered my new lovelyboy(friend) was absent. i got a vanilla bean from a broken bottle, i got a black&white cookie (just like in seinfeld) on my lunchbreak (i had to bike to a cafe down the way to get it, and it was lovely.) after work i went to check out a place i want to move to, and was so surprised to find that it was exactly what i had dreamed of, and then i got nervous because it means moving again, and i think maybe i should just go for it.
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that sounds so wizard of oz-ish. i'm glad you're okay, though.
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i am trying to deal with it as head-on as i can though,
or else it's just like the dust bunnies under the bed...
they grow into monsters!
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it scares me but it is even more scary the possibility that i won´t be able to make it happen
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wise men have said something along the lines of this:
even when you are given an opportunity to make something happen,
& it seems to you as if you've failed to fulfill your task
, if you gave it your best shot, really,
that's all that matters.
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the wise men and you are right!!!
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that wise man was leonard cohen.
and maybe carl jung said it a little bit too,
but he threw in a tree metaphor somewhere,
and leonard didn't. but still, both, wise, wise, wise
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my last beau asked me to marry him all the time, and i always said no.
and even now, he still asks, and i still say no,
and it's funny because i won't even sleep over at his house
and he knows we're not 2gether like that anymo'...
so....why do i spill all these beans,
maybe just because if we all spill our beans
the world would be brighter, happier, tastier...
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i appreciate you sharing.
let's not be ants.
i'd write more, but i'm tired.
i had a long day.
maybe i'll write just a little more.
i woke up, transferred bowie albums to my ipod,
had some raisin bran, biked to work, felt totally awesome&beauty-full,
& was only disheartened when i discovered my new lovelyboy(friend) was absent.
i got a vanilla bean from a broken bottle,
i got a black&white cookie (just like in seinfeld) on my lunchbreak
(i had to bike to a cafe down the way to get it, and it was lovely.)
after work i went to check out a place i want to move to,
and was so surprised to find that it was exactly what i had dreamed of,
and then i got nervous because it means moving again,
and i think maybe i should just go for it.
bowie is singin' in my head...modern love.
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