I had a negative caloric intake of 595 yesterday. i gained a whole pound.

what the fuck?

weight: 143.0
down 1.0 i can't believe i lost an even pound. i can't believe i lost a whole pound. i stayed up until 1 am with my roommates and friends last night making and eating cookies. it's so hard to make good food choices when i'm around them. they just eat all this fun food all of the time and i look at their perfect bodies and think, " ( Read more... )

weight: 144.0
up 1.8 since thursday

could be worse, could be worse.

my roommates made s'mores last night around midnight. if i were a better person, i would have said "no thanks" instead i said, "two please!"

spinning and kickboxing today. no fat today. get pretty today.

i did my reading thursday night at 142.0. it went really well, everybody liked it. i borrowed a dress from my ballet major roommate, it made me feel really good ( Read more... )

weight: 142.2.
up/down 0.0

i did kickboxing and spinning yesterday. the word disappointed doesn't begin to cover it.

i'm doing my reading tonight. i'm borrowing a dress from my roommate. i was aiming to be in the 130's by now. god, i'm such a failure.

weight: 142.2
down .4

So, yesterday I ate 420 calories and 4 g of fat without going to the gym at all and lost .4 pounds
on monday I did spinning and kickboxing and had a negative caloric intake in the negative 600's and lost .4 pounds.

if the results are going to be the same either way, it's kind of hard to stay motivated...

weight: 142.6
down .4 with a negative intake yesterday in the 600's... i have to say i'm a bit disappointed with the loss. I mean, it's a whole new low weight so I should be excited about that but... it's not even a half pound. Oh, well, i'll have to work harder today ( Read more... )

weight: 143.0 ( Read more... )

spent the day eating.

it's half past eight and i'm probably at around 1,000. i worked out for an embarrassingly short amount of time. 20 minutes on the bike, 10 minutes running. i just felt fat, unmotivated, and sad.

i feel like shit.

weight: 143.0
down/up 0.0 i'm sad i didn't lose, but I had two spoonfuls of peanut butter last night and didn't go to the gym at all, so i should be thankful. i layed outside in the sun in my bathing suit yesterday. i know everyone who saw me must have been thinking, "holy shit, look at those thighs!" I shouldn't be let out of the house, i'm ( Read more... )