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[aprilmay489]

i dont really know how to descreibe how i feel right now. but honestly i think it may be some sort of jealousy. i rememeber this never used to bother me. maybe it did, but i wasnt as deep in it as i am now. there is no turning back at this point. but i dont want to. i like where i am. or was if anything has changed which i think it has. or maybe im

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[lilynthavally]

your my best friend in the world but there are times when we jsut really clash. to the point ide rather not deal with it. ebcuz when i deal with it i always hurt you . ur always offended. but not only is it that. im also really offended ..... becuz i dont like certain things .. and im not going to have them. i love you to death but i dont like being degraded even if its just joking. i can handle it somtimes .. by people im not around all the time. but its getting to the point im not hurt im pissed. i dont like it when ppl make degrading statments that make ppl laugh. atleast not on a regular basis

[aprilmay489]

I know ur right. Mosr of the time ur right. This is all new to me amazing ly but I know I fucked up a lot but u have to understand that im not used to hurting people feelings like I hurt urs. In my life however I degrade u thatsnormal for me and my sister. I honestly cannot think of a time when I have to u. but im not saying I haven’t. im saying I don’t even realize it. I don’t even know wut it is. I really don’t want to hurt u. I really don’t. that’s why so many times I don’t say much because I don’t want out conversations to become tense or turn the worng way. And with italy, by the time it came around I didn’t even want to go. And im glad I did but the timing was horrible. That’s not what I wanted to spend my money on. But according to my mom every penny I earned should have gone to that trip but it didn’t. I would still take paychecks and try to make up for the weed and the rolls. And I know it didn’t compare and I understand that u get shit for u r weed. But I did try. But at the time I could only do so much. The sad thing is I

[lilynthavally]

gues what. nomore barry he got caught.

things will get better, somtimes they ahve to get worse first.

[lilynthavally]

he got cuaght. in his room. and hes gone. really. thats sad. i was starting to like his company. an ur omm just got his room all hight tech and shit.

ur right. ill see u soon

love april