My name is Joshua Evan Smith. I live in Matamoras. I don't really have anyone I consider a 'friend'. my Dad is sick, and my family is disfunctional. Every day, I wake up, and I keep pushing on. Why? Because there are many others who do the same.

I am a person. A living breathing person. Please regard me as one..
I put others before myself, one ( Read more... )

i aint no goddamn sonuvabitch. you better think about it baby.

any of you kids going to open mic tomorrow? if you are please leave a comment, so may perhaps hitch a ride with you, providing you can tolerate my presence. ahoy

im currently at jon's house in woodlands. Mal just signed on, and then signed off without responding. i guess she made it home safely though? anyway, I'll be online tonight if anyone wants to do anything. take care everyone

I really don't know what to say. I'm currently listening to my Dad scream at my Grandma downstairs. He's finally unleashing all of his hatred for our family? I don't know. My Grandparents and cousins want me to see them for Christmas, and my Dad wants me to stay home and be all "to hell with everyone." I honestly would like to see my family, but it ( Read more... )

I just got back from my Grandma's church. I did the lighting for the Christmas Eve Mass thing. I'm not really relgious, but the sight of about 300 people with candles below me while I stood alone in an attic balcony really kind of warmed me up. Or maybe it was just the cute little kids singing? Then Mallory's Postal Service Away Message <3. Even ( Read more... )

in pitch dark i go walking in your landscape.
broken branches trip me as i speak.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.
just because you feel it doesnt mean it's there.

there's always a siren
singing you to shipwreck.
(don't reach out, don't reach out)
steer away from these rocks

Name: Joshua
Eyes: Usually green, extremely blue as of this week/last
Hair color: brown/blonde
Height: 5'11
weight: 130 something?
shoe size: 11 1/2
pants size: 28w 30l? maybe thats big now i dont know.
favorite color: blue/green
tattoos: no

Thats about as far as I got before losing interest.

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I'll Never Be Good Enough......... so why do i even try?

wow mal, way to maturely sign off while we were talking. obviously you havent thought about what i told you the other night. im sorry you're not as fragile as i am. im glad you can live with yourself ( Read more... )