you never think it can get worse.. but it does.

my car got hit..
mom thought it was me
twisted back again
can't move - ouch.

dear God, thank you for always being there when i'm alone, for getting me through each day, for the few amazing people You've put in my life and allowed me to love, that no matter what happens i'll always be with You. amen.

perhaps if i was..
just a little bit stronger
just a little bit wiser
just a little less needy
maybe i'd get there...
just a little bit pretty
just a little more aware
just a little bit thinner
and maybe i'd get there.

5 :(

it was a strange english class. we discussed wonderful robert frost poems - the need to just run away from things sometimes, rainbow ice storms (the shattered glass dome of heaven), and how one of the hardest things to comprehend is when someone with their whole life ahead of them dies. how it leaves you lost. she started silently crying and i ( Read more... )

dear God,
HELP.

things aren't any better. not at all.

just one person... that's all i've wanted my entire life. ONE PERSON. i don't need a fairy tale life, i just want someone who cares for me the way i need so desperately. it's all i've ever dreamed of - never boys, never a future, just a MOM. i just want need to be loved.i haven't left my room in weeks. alone, curled in a ball on my floor sobbing, ( Read more... )

dreams never come true.