I constantly am just plain old not good enough for people. I think I'm pretty funny, I've developed a good fashion sense and eye for improving my appearance in the past few years, I am extremely accomodating, I have pretty good taste and more importantly I'm open to trying anything. But every person (make that about two) I've ever wanted to be with ( Read more... )

I can't begin to write at this moment where I was a year ago today. I will have to save it for tomorrow. Or not because by then I might have forgotten the wave of emotion I just woke up from sleep to. I miss it all. I can see the lights almost 200 blocks away from where the Twin Towers once stood and I know that there are people who miss so much ( Read more... )

Can't sleep because salty fat wet drips are falling out of my eyes faster than I can wipe away with the lack of kleenex in my room. I just want to be near someone. OHHHHH Theo teddy bear of mine you have always been my staple. My bear tastes like salt because of the times I've cried deep into his fur. I keep playing the song Natalie Portman by Ozma ( Read more... )

Today my co-worker Joey and I walked our other co-worker Helen home to her apartment. It was her birthday and no girl should have to walk home late at night on her birthday. Walking from the restaurant to the high rise she lives in made me feel very in the moment. I live here now. I am not staying here for a day or a week. These are my people. I am ( Read more... )

What does one do exactly to prepare for a special visitor? All I think about is cleaning my room and plucking my eyebrows. Both seem not enough though to really make your house a welcome home for someone. Only my mother has visited me since I've been here and she is pretty much happy as long as the toilet is clean ( Read more... )

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I am melting away. The thermometer says it was 101 degrees outside of my apt. today. I might die of heat exhaustion BUT ( Read more... )

I still have a rash. I'm beginning to come to terms with it. It doesnt seem to go away. I wonder if it is because my computer has a super duper hot processor and it rests on my legs. (Usually I use pillows though to protect my legs from the heat). Camilo is coming tonight. I started this journal when I was a senior in high school and now I'm an ( Read more... )

Today I feel as if I am not only feeling crazy but that I actually look crazy. Maybe someone on the street can tell I'm a little off today. This is no good because I have to work a wedding all evening long and I will definitely be crying (happy tears of course) and then I will feel more off. I also had a dream last night where I was at a party at ( Read more... )

A small bug just flew up my nose here at Collegetown Bagels. I am not sure if I hated it or loved it. It felt pretty cool until I had to cover up one nostril and blow it out into a napkin. Either they keep their air conditioning too cold here or wearing only a bathing suit and a thing little cover up to come eat here was a bad idea. BUT now I'm ( Read more... )