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May 04, 2009 15:07

My dog, Missy, was very, very sick. She had stopped eating, almost stopped drinking. She couldn't walk. I had to carry her outside so she could go pee and then carry her back inside. It doesn't make it any easier. Knowing that we were putting her out of her misery doesn't make it any easier ( Read more... )

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chasingtides May 4 2009, 19:36:19 UTC

*hugs*

*so many hugs*

I'm, uh, Crazy with a capital C right now, but if you want a friend -soon or anytime- I am here.

arathin May 4 2009, 21:07:32 UTC

Thank you, sweetie. I think that after you're done with the semester, we need to take a nice little camping trip. What do you think?

chasingtides May 4 2009, 21:08:13 UTC

That sounds good.

dj_muse May 4 2009, 21:58:50 UTC

I know exactly how you feel. I miss Shiva every day.

*hugs*

arathin May 4 2009, 22:17:36 UTC

Why don't we ever hang out. I miss you. We need to remedy this. Granted, I'm drunk. I won't remember much of this, but we do need to hang out. I think I need to make a "Missy" playlist. But I don't know what songs to use. I miss her.

dj_muse May 4 2009, 23:23:11 UTC

We need to do that, agreed.

I've been really depressed lately (changing meds, it hasn't been going well, I'm still grieving over Shiva) and hiding from people. I'm trying to shake it off, but it's not easy.

Feel free to cry a lot - I know I did for days after she left. It still hits me at the oddest of times and it's been over three months now.

midnightbelle23 May 4 2009, 23:28:26 UTC

*hugs* I'm so sorry... These things are never easy... 6 years later and I still miss my Kayla :( If you want to chat, give a call *hugs again*

arathin May 5 2009, 02:25:51 UTC

Thanks, but I'm not sure I can actually talk to anyone about it right now. It's still too sharp, too fresh.

She wasn't just my dog, whom I had raised from a little puppy. She was my familiar. Watching her slow decay... Watching her stop eating because she couldn't keep anything down... Holding her in my arms as she stopped breathing... I'm not sure what of it hurts the worst.

But I can't talk. I can't even stop crying. And words seem like hollow comfort right now. But words are all anyone has to give and I just can't appreciate them yet.

seraphimstar May 6 2009, 03:07:42 UTC

*hugs* I know the pain, a few times over now, and I'm here whenever you need.