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I dunno how exactly i feel. It's weird really. I feel, hopeful and determined. But I feel alone and scared that I'm going to fall back into the same old pattern. I unsure of the future, and still think there's a good chance that whatever opportunity comes my way, I'll find a way to blow.

I feel down, and hurt, but not down and out. Life's got a few ( Read more... )

So, as you can see by the date, time sure has passed since my last entry. I'm still here, still kind of confused as to what I want, and what I feel. In all honesty, I don't really know where I am, much less where I am going from here. I mean that as far as with my career, with my friends, and with any girls. Not that I've got any in mind at the ( Read more... )

As I sit here, listening to Third Eye Blind with my windows open and a cool breeze carrying the smell of cut grass in through my window, I realize, I'm ok again. I'm not spectacular, or fantastic, but I'm good. I am again content with what I do and do not have. The exams are done, the job is winding down and I'm packing my things. A few more steps ( Read more... )

"Sometimes we put up walls.

Not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to knock them down."

Fantastic quote. Dunno who by.

Erik

Well, Happy Easter. Got home for a little bit this weekend, which was nice. Hung out with everyone for a while, including Becky. it wasn't too awkward, so I guess that's good. I still didn't feel like getting a ride home with her, plus she left before me. It's weird being single, I feel like I really need to work on the whole being independent ( Read more... )

And now I'm alone. There is no one that will be waiting for me. No one to run fingers through my hair while I fall asleep. No one to harass and to wrestle until I tickle. And I am sad. I cut the cord, I did this to myself. This is what I wanted.

...is it?

Too late now. I pulled that trigger and it shot tried and true. From my hand and through her ( Read more... )

I'm tired, I'm worn, and I just want it to feel ok. I feel like I talk to people, and but I don't really say anything. I don't know how I really feel except depressed. And I don't know if anyone actually sees that. And yet, ironically I sit here at this desk and smile at every person that goes by. I feel like I'm an annoyance to some friends, and ( Read more... )

I'm thinking of getting my left brow pierced with, and I'd put a curved barbell in it, either black or silver. What do you think?

My answer: "good, busy but good, you know, just the usual. Got a lot of class and work ( Read more... )