he broke my heart and i moved out that night. i plan to break his tenfold with a really terrible letter because i'm traditional that way, and he's no exception to the rules ( Read more... )

oh, man. everything ( Read more... )

the other night, i bought a computer for thirty bucks off of an old hippie couple that came into the gas station looking to sell a bunch of stuff to get the money to make it home down south. the screen has a permanent green tint to it because the buttons on the moniter don't work properly, but i don't really care. i like my new battered toy. the ( Read more... )

i don't take this very seriously anymore, and i feel kind of guilty but i think it half -has to do with the overall forced acceptance into having to let all of my private something or others go when my laptop got wrapped up in the chaos of the street. on paper, i don't have to worry because it's like no one can touch that, it will always be with me ( Read more... )

this is my life now; evenings on the porch across the street smoking cigarettes with his granny and having the same conversations, just in different words, how strange and calm everything is now, but still so painful. there are arguments and accusations still, hidden truths coming lose, but that was a couple nights ago when i hopped on the back of ( Read more... )

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the imagery is starting to fade into a story that's even harder to believe than it was when it happened, and i am thankful for this. our bedroom is dark and humid and smells of rat piss and decay. we've migrated into his sister's room because she doesn't sleep at home anymore, sharing a single red comforter and a pillow made out of hot material; we ( Read more... )

even now, i'm still not entirely sure how all of this got so bad. in just a matter of days i feel years older than i did before. i can't comprehend how so much evil can live inside of a single human being. i never believed that i would witness it. but then, we never think that these things can actually happen to us until they already have ( Read more... )

last night, last straw ( Read more... )

i'm off work and drinking a beer at seven fifty in the morning. someone forgot to turn off the television hours ago, abandoned cartoons. the dog is whining and the cats are scrambling. my nose is running and my feet are sore ( Read more... )