If anyone has ever even had a lingering thought that I might be a relatively worthwhile person to associate with, here is what I have to tell you
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At first I thought it was genuinely motivation and the desire to better myself in some way, but now I realize it's only bitter, festering jealousy and the absolute need to improve enough to, hopefully, spite you.
If you died right now it would take everything I have to restrain my joy and satisfaction
If most of the people I know could just like, I don't know, go away and never come within a 5 mile radius of me, that would be...just awesome
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FUCKING GOD. Why am I always so mad about EVERYTHING? I hate being upset all the time, it's like this permanent lovesick feeling and my stomach is always churning a heartbreaking stew of sadness and self-disapproval. ALWAYS.