one of the places in the world i feel truly warm and safe. 
the christmas lights and the old worn furniture and the kitchen
i just sit and listen to the music
i used to fall asleep to the bluegrass lullabys on the couch
and now i watch the bassist and you know, they dont get a lot of credit
but you watch her fingers and theyre not even fingers anymore
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OUT OF CONTROL!!!111
i was gonna stay up aaaaaall night and read
(A FAREWELL TO ARMS)

however.

i think i will go to bed. cuz i was barking and running around the house and drawing pictures of men holding jars of lighteningbugs! reallyfast. they are to be published as a coloring book. i do not suspect anyone will ever understand how god damn productive ( Read more... )

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i have to find a senior quote. now. please make suggestions to me.

meanwhile, life is progressing well
cookie parties, card-making, holiday ball decorating, watching of christmas specials, more cookies, the oc chrismakah fiasco, apple cider, stocking-sewing, shopping expeditions, etc. i just really think you cant be any where better than festive. 
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it's snowing beautiful at my house

snow on the fragile bare branches and snow illuminted under street lights
the air is mountains and wind. inside is warmth and light and blankets.

this evening the sky was pale blue 
and the trees were black 
and the moon was white 
and the clouds were low 
and you knew it was coming.

snow day?!?


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i am suddenly seized to write in this. perhaps to avoid getting shit together for AI club? because amnesty international's website is not being good to me. augh.

thanksgiving was a lot of loud people making racial slurs and drinking, with the usual gay uncle and great-grandma who talks to her dead husband thrown in.
same old, same old. 
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 i just saw babel.

so. fucking. intense.

my body was tense the entire time. bracing for the next turn. that kind of thing.
so obviously it was really brutal. i closed my eyes sometimes because it was so hard to watch.
but it was entirely amazing. the connection between the tower of babel (in the bible) and the horrible things that happened because of ( Read more... )

necessary backround info: so marley, aka yves, is my desk partner in french 1. he is an extremely feminine freshman who sings spice girls, clearly has a crush on a guy in the next row up and giggles higher than i do.

today :

me: (sigh) life is so monotonous...
yves: except sometimes you get new pants.

enough said.

man. having no homework over the weekend is actually not so good. 
it leaves hella lot of time for emotional upsets.
its a good thing i like/am used to them
still. there is also so much stuff i could have gotten down, it hurts to think about.

oh man, but my brothers korean cabin-mate from yosemite came up with him and is spending the night in our house ( Read more... )

i have a shattering headache. wow! how interesting.
halloween was the bestest. and monday and tuesday too. and that day when lewis helped me write the amnesty international budget...that was good
and the phone just won't stop ringing. 
and echoing through the house, which has been strangely empty for hours.
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