today i went to the mall and there were these 3 hot guys walking towards me and when i looked up one was staring at me so i looked back down and when we passed eachother he said in my ear, "its ok." thats been on my mind all day thinking what he's talking about. ppl always tell me i look mad, i guess thats why. i wish things were ok. when i got ( Read more... )

yesterday was my first day at work and it was from 9 to 5. me, some woman, and mom's friend were talking and i got deja vu. not sure how i saw it before. then around lunch time i got a call saying that mom's at the hospital cuz she passed out at work. so i told my boss and he said i could work tomorrow. he kept calling to make sure mom's ok and ( Read more... )

this morning we went to court but it wasnt the trial so i didnt have to be there. went there with mom and saw dad. we didnt talk to eachother, he just gave me a look. the other night my dad and i got into an argument and pissed me off so i stayed with a friend for a while. hes acting so fucked up lately cuz he took the video cameras outta my room ( Read more... )

dad got a retraining order on mom. we didnt know til he got home tonight and saw her here. he asked me why she's here. didnt know what he was talking about. he got his things and said," i guess i'll have to call the cops." so the cop came and told mom she has to go to court on the 20th and that she cant be within 500 ft of this house. i'll have to ( Read more... )

last night mom got into her drunken psychoticness again. she took all of dad's clothes and threw them out then wanted me to choose sides. i asked her if she wanted me to pick who i like more and i said that im not gonna do that. got pissed off at her for doing that. dad got home and i had to stay away from the bitching. all night they were wanting ( Read more... )

dad's been acting like an asshole towards me which he doesnt have the right to since he hurt me. he gives me these dirty looks, i give them right back, he gets an attitude, i act like a bitch back. he's caring more about the woman. we found a letter he wrote confessing his love for her. mom says she's 22, dad told me she's 20, she's still fuckin ( Read more... )

today i tried calling my dad's cell just to tell him to get light bulbs. it rang a few times then the voice mail came on. so i called again and it was just the voice mail. i called a few more times and the same thing. so i left a message saying "ur not answering ur damn phone and i was trying to call to tell u we need light bulbs." i knew he turned ( Read more... )

i got nice presents but i dont care much for them. once again i was surprised by a phone call. it was my friend ashy ass from louisiana. i havent talked to my peeps in a lloonnnngggg time. i had the biggest smile on my face which u rarely ever see. anyways, i thought they forgot all about me. been thinking about them for weeks and last time i ( Read more... )

mom calls my cell and tells me"if anything happens to me take care of ur grandma. i took all the tylenol and now im gonna sleep". i kept asking what do u mean cuz i didnt wanna believe what i was hearing. i started crying and didnt know what to do. mom's friend calls and asks me if she had talked to me. she said that mom told her to take care of me ( Read more... )

last night i stayed in a hotel with my mom cuz she didnt want to see my dad. we drank and she fell asleep before me. so i was up watching adult swim since i had nothing to do. pretty damn expensive for one night tho. yesterday morning i woke up with a tune in my head and ive never heard of it before. i planned on writing the lyrics down but i never ( Read more... )