to my caroline

Caroline
~Brandi Carlile

I woke up long after dawn
20 years had come and gone
I know when it changed for me
A day in June you came to me
I've seen through someone else's eyes
With nothin' on the other side
Every motel, every town
Pieces scattered all around

Promises that I can't be
Someone's heart that I can't keep
Days so long I couldn't speak
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these precious things
let them bleed
let them wash away
these precious things
let them break their hold over me

once again i let my immaturity and stupidity ruin something wonderful in my life. i really need someone to talk to someone who will listen and help me move on.

why do i feel like i just made the biggest mistake of my life. i drove for a while thinking to myself "god did i just lose the best thing in my life?" the worst is not the end but knowing it's your fault. knowing you fucked up. i was never there for her not really. i didn't take the time to learn her and for that i'm sorry. if there's was anything ( Read more... )

i got my loan. so now it's official once i pay hawkeye i am once again a student. i will be taking 2 web classes this summer then i am going to enroll in a full semester in the fall. my plan is to eventually end up at uni but we will see. i am just so excited not only do i not have to worry about the money anymore i may have a place to live. my ( Read more... )

it hurts to know that the person you love doesn't feel the same way. it's hard to know what's going on in their head.

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

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"You can ask for space for yourself and only yourself and I'll grant it
You can ask for freedom as well or time to travel and you'll have it
You can ask to live by yourself or love someone else and I'll support it
You can ask for anything you want anything at all and I'll understand it
(and there are no strings attached to it)"

Alanis said it best.

i kinda had an epiphany i guess that's what you'd call it. i am sick of regretting every decision i've made saying to myself "why didn't you do that?" of "you shouldn't have done that." i am sick of feeling like i'm worthless. i am going to go back to school and i'm going to succeed because that's what i need to do to become who i want to be. i am ( Read more... )

that's what i did last night. my angel took me to see Rumors and i haven't laughed that much in a long time it was great. the whole cast was amazing and their timing was great. then we went to the shop and hung out with holly and rj and some of the boys who will keep you laughing till you feel like you're going to collapse. i believe at the end of ( Read more... )

is ever easy. i just had one of the most incredible nights of my life. my angel has shown me that life is worth working at. nothing is going to come easy it is going to take time and hard work. as for unconditional love well jinx. wishing for snow and snuggles and quality time.

"and i'm thirsty anyway so bring on the rain"

my life is in a pile on the floor. i'm traveling through the dark without a clue where i'm going. i wish i could have been all the surprises she thought i was. i don't even know what to say to her how to approach her. i know i want to run to her and hold her. the worst thing is knowing you failed someone so entirely to know that you could have done ( Read more... )