so, i have found my self in love. with many aspects, people, things in my life. i am a lover, never a fighter. though loving sometimes brings out my fight. i am in love, i think. i am. with what i'm not sure. one of my biggest problems is that i fall in love. with people's insecurities, their souls mispellings. i see these things that make us ( Read more... )

i am a hollow person. these words have been in my mind since yesterday. to receive love that is not deserved yet it fills the empty spaces. is that right? ok? i have always been hollow, void of life yet full of it. i care too much. a repetition of words. worry too much and then sometimes too little when it means the most. how will i ever be ( Read more... )

again with the confusion and the hurt. whenever i feel like things are better i find something to fill the void of pain. or void of ignorance. or void of confusion. maybe that's a better way to explain it. i am unfaithful to myself. i think that's my biggest problem. how i can i be content when i look in the mirror with disgust? i was so over it ( Read more... )

this seems to be my motto lately. or maybe my whole life. am i selfish? a shitty person? how can i live 2 separate lives? be two places at once? be two people but the same person? i am at a crossroads that i have never been to before. it is serious this time. people will be hurt, including me. no matter what. is it my destiny to fail? i feel the ( Read more... )

do you ever come to a point in your life where for some ridiculously stubborn reason you reevaluate the things you have selected to fill your life with? friday. are the people i have chosen really good? am i changing and becoming someone i don't understand? i want to take photos of this time in my life. i feel like i need to look back at this time ( Read more... )

i am content. still. happy even. overwhelmed sometimes. but happy and willing and wanting to move forward. love is a strange thing. makes people capable of odd behavior. i want to get married someday. but is it all just a joke? a way to please others? or do i have something to prove? i was going through pictures today from another life that i seem ( Read more... )

so i have been busy and still. i feel like i have way too much to do and i am over my head but then there is this calmness. optimism. something i haven't felt for an extended period of time in awhile. i am kissed. the kind of kiss you don't want to pull away from. mesmerizing and moved. i look over and i see a prince. someone i want to care for as ( Read more... )

i am missing and missed. it is crazy how months, days can make a difference. hours. are what? i am content in a way i have never been. is this the calm before the storm? it feel different this time. to love without the need of sex. the satisfaction of you more powerful and important than the satisfaction of flesh. to feel that you, that i, am ( Read more... )

Cut my life into pieces ( Read more... )

i have been thinking a lot the past couple of days. my moods have been extreme highs and extreme lows, as usual. i have been thinking about me. i am happy. i am reverting but happy. i make mistakes all the time and then try to fix them in ways that make no sense. i am sexually frustrated. i am crazy sometimes but that is for me to decide. i'm not ( Read more... )