i want to be happy

 i wish everyday could feel like the first time i laid eyes on you.
i truly do not want to be another statistic.
i just want it all to be okay in the end.
the future runs through my head every single day.
i love you.

i feel like everything is starting to fall right into place.

i wish i didn't over analyze everythiing.

i just love every moment we spend together and i hope they never end.
i love our family and i'm loving life right now even though at times it gets hard i just know we will and can get through it together.
i respect you so much i just want you to know.

you're only four feet away from me asleep
i'm not open enough to you about how i feel
because opening up to me feels like such a pussy thing to do
and i need to hold on to my pride, right?
i'm so "tough" but only you know that that's just a mask i like to put on half the time.
you read me like a book.
i think i just need this to be here so i can look ( Read more... )

this apartment feels like a prison--
i hate it so much.
i love this city but at the same time i feel so alone here.

i wish i could cut and paste and rearrange sometimes.
it's stupid to dwell upon a past that had nothing to do with me.
but at times i still wish i could have been a part of it.
i love you that much.

i wish i could write.