Not much has changed since the last time I hopped on here. Yesterday I spent more than an hour going through entries from 2005. I came to the conclusion I wasn't too happy back then either. If only I knew what kind of fuckery would be in store for me a year later & beyond ( Read more... )

Holy shit, I haven't been on here in years. I wish I kept up with it. My life feels like it's such a mess. I just want to go back so many years. I'm having so much trouble just getting along. I feel like nobody likes me at work. I don't get paid near enough & I've probably been screwed out of thousands of dollars just by staying so long. Fuck, I'm ( Read more... )

I blew up at Phil on thursday about his drinking problem. I found empty bottles & cans hidden around in not so discreet places & packs of cigarettes in his backpack when we share smokes so he doesn't end up smoking too much & I just got so mad I was almost screaming. Those feelings boiled over to the weekend. I have the house to myself because he ( Read more... )

Alright let's update, shall we? I have a myspace now but the only friends I have are people I already know. Guess I'm not cool enough to have 300 friends. Why do I care so much about how small my friends list is? In the end I think I'd rather have a handful of close friends than 300 strangers who don't really know me. You people are missing out on ( Read more... )

Check my journal to see cute pics of my daughter! I love her so much.

So I'm sitting outside on my front porch waiting for triple A to change my flat tire. I had my dad try & do it but the lugnuts are on waaaay to tight. Phil & I bought this nifty wireless laptop over the weekend & got internet connection yesterday.Yesterday was his birthday & since I suck as a wife I didn't get him anything. Not even a birthday ( Read more... )

I have to make this quicker than I want to but some things I have to jot down before too much time passes. As of tonight I'm a 3rd shift worker. Tonight I'm midnight-5am but I start my regular 9pm-5:30am shift tomorrow night. I think these hours will be good I'll be doing 40 hour weeks again I'll be home all day everyday & best of all I'll be ( Read more... )

The following disclaimers & phrases always get stuck in my head ( Read more... )

I guess it's true what they say. If you don't use it you lose it. When I was a kid I used to draw like crazy. Now I don't do shit. My life is wrapped up in being tired, being a mom, working, marital stress, not going out enough, cleaning house, stressing over money, feeling lazy, feeling fat, & just feeling bored with my job & life in general. I ( Read more... )

Why do I let people piss me off to the point where my blood is boiling over? On my way to my parent's house to drop off Gracie this afternoon this woman followed me after I supposedly almost hit her while she was backing out of her driveway & she accused me of speeding around the corner. First of all I had the right of way, second of all I WAS NOT ( Read more... )