Talked to Cady today ( whos had a miscarriage in hs). feel better.

It just dawned on me when it was taking 80 million years to fill up my water bottle that they changed faucets to save money ( Read more... )

The water spout in my dorm bathroom is different than it was last semester and before I left for Christmas break. Instead of shooting out in a rush it comes out like a shower head. I know people are in the dorms doing something because I left my bedroom door unlocked (over xmas break) and "they" locked it. I don't know what word describes how I ( Read more... )

Tell me baby what's your story ( Read more... )

Getting Better. I'm nervous to go back but I can do it. It'll be GREAT to live with Alex, even though I'll miss Anna terribly. We've all promised to head up to Alma as soon as she goes into labor... so I'll see her soon enough. I'll miss my friends here, and not having them close at hand is gonna be rough. (Love you Ladies). But I can do it ( Read more... )

new years basically kicked me in the ass and then ate my heart for breakfast. things are getting worse.

I can not functoin.

I don't have energy for shit. Sleep till three, then I spend the rest of the day criticizing myself and thinking of crafty ways out. One thing makes me happy, and I'm holding on by a thread. It's been therapist times for months, Im making an appt.

he is incredibly distracting.

i love it.

also, im amazed at how my outside life has keep on continuing smoothly as I personally and emotionally fall apart. how is it possible that I'm doing so good? I'm doing better in school then i ever have in my life but it makes me feel fucking worthless. Like i have no control. I've been trying my whole life to chill the fuck out and just get ( Read more... )

i cannot stand the utter scilence in my dorm right now, and i hate that the only face i have to look at is my own. I feel like I do many other nights; If i do ten lines of vicodin and noone sees me, hey it doesnt count. I just need SOMETHING to get me through the night. my phone and my hat got stolen last night, which figures I would become ( Read more... )