The past few days have been hard on me. On one hand i feel they have been the best i've seen in a while. On the other hand, i haven't stressed myself out over so much nothing for a while longer. I think i was talking to Adam a while ago about how it's strange how one can work themselves into a rut by making up their own bad scenarios in their ( Read more... )

I think i have finally hit the point i would have never thought possible. I'm no longer interested in being drunk or stoned. I just realized that doing shit that alters me, while sometimes is a welcome change, isn't needed if i like who i really am. From now on i'm gonna focus more on liking my sober self, and spend less time seeking solace in a ( Read more... )

For the first day in months i have the money to do everything i want to do. I forgot how good that feels.. being broke sucks...

The past couple weeks my life has been a total rollercoaster. Only thing i could do was hold on and try not to fall off ( Read more... )

My manager at work got fired the other day.. it really doesn't sit well with me. Working at my new job in BP is the first time i can say i actually got along with some of the management. The kitchen manager, Jon, was the best manager i've ever had. He was always helpful, it was never too busy or hard when he was working, and he took the time to ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me, I'm 22 years old today. It's funny how everyone makes such a big deal about birthdays.. but i don't feel any different today that i did yesterday. I've never been one for celebrating birthdays, they don't seem very special to me, but if people are gonna give me stuff, i'm all for it ;) What i'd really like for my birthday ( Read more... )

The internet is such a wonderful thing. Where else can people with low self esteem and a tough life take it out on other people without fear of repercussions? With the internet, all those scrawny, buck-toothed mouthy teenagers can actually pick on someone else for a change, and that's a good thing!.. isn't it?

I find it depressing that from the minute we are born our lives are basically set out for us. We are to be slaves of our society. It doesn't matter if you agree with society, you are on this world to serve. I long for the chance to live my life how i choose. I should have taken more survival courses as a kid so i could have just ran off to live ( Read more... )

hy·po·chon·dri·ac [ hpə kóndree àk ( Read more... )

So sick of it all.. same thing day in day out, as long as i can remember. I struggle with myself to break the chain, but in the end i do nothing. I am comfortable in the monotony... i hate it yet am scared to change. I know what i should do.. i have been thinking of it for a long time, though i am too weak to see it through.