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[ariel_robertos]

Last night was a very difficult evening. Have you ever felt just completely, 100% alone, like there was no one, nothing. I felt like that last night. Like a part of myself was missing almost, IDK, its hard to explain. After shedding some tears for a good half an hour, I just talked with God. I didnt really want to, but I knew I needed too. I

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LJANARCHY

[exrandu]

For a moment I consoled myself with the memories of my childhood, but as soon as I though them, they evaporated. Nothing. Nothing existed here, except my consciousness. My body had long since disappeared, my memories were almost all gone, my emotions reduced to empty apathy. The oblivion devoured all. My personality, my confidence, everything that defined myself was gone. Soon, I would be reduced to the base concept of thought, and then even that would perish.

If I could have smiled, I would have, though.

There is a peculiar freedom in losing it all.

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[ariel_robertos]

Who are you? If you dont mind me asking?

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[exrandu]

I am the founder of the organization without order. We are the LJA, and you are a victim. Become a predator, sheep.

[denika_louise]

humm... (that was odd.)

anyway, being a good sister, i should give you some kind of advice... right? well, i am a bad sister and have none to give you as i struggle with these feelings too. sometimes it is strange how you can be so surrounded by people, yet feel so completly alone. i understand the feeling. so far i am coming to the conclusion that God uses these feelings of complete empty/aloneness to draw us closer to him. that is all ive got so far. call me if you need to talk. i love you lots, and i like you better alive.

... and i am always, always here for you...

[ariel_robertos]

Thanks Melissa
(I would like to say more, but I really just dont know what to say)