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All kinds of new things.
It's funny to look back at my most recent posts now... Even though the most recent one is from November, and before that is very sporadic throughout 2012 and 2011, they're still fairly representative for how I had been feeling most of the time, I guess for many years now? With the most remarkable exception of 2009 - 2010 when I was working at Bark ( Read more... ) -
Deja Vu
I'm starting to think that what used to be just mild "deja vu" is actually me going, slowly, but surely, insane.
My feelings of deja vu are often like the flash of a photo, it's only this exact frame right here that seems familiar, and I'm certain that if I could just remember properly, I could fill it out to a whole picture or a short video and ( Read more... ) -
the burden of freedom
I generally think that freedom is a very burdensome thing. In a way, I don’t resent people who take it for granted or become lazy about it, because being really free is a lot of work.
And it’s overwhelming.
I have a postsecret photo on my bedroom wall that says,
“Sometimes I am envious of women unburdened by the freedom to be anything they want to be ( Read more... ) -
Dreams of Overreach
I feel like my dreams are too big. There are so many things. Things I want to do. I don’t know how to get there.
- Pottery
- Sex Education
- Gender/Sex Research
- Grad School/Master’s/Ph.D
- Politics
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Things I did today.
After my break down shortly after class, I dragged my butt to Target because I was getting very tired of having wet socks every time it rained on account of my sneakers' soles were so worn down they were actually... uh... falling off.
While I was there, I gave in to the fact that it probably really wasn't working any more to have every single bra ( Read more... ) -
Time is Slippery
So I had a few sessions with the therapist and then stopped going. I was having that thing where I just didn’t want to go because trying to discuss things was too painful and fuck I don’t know. Also, I didn’t feel so bad for a while. I liked Susan, I think I appreciated her perspective and the way she would rephrase things, but it was just ugh I ( Read more... ) -
Recovery, The Inescapable Spiral
This article from feministe made me think about the way recovery from abuse is never really over, I think. You never really get over the impulse to apologize, to minimize, normalize behavior. Never get over the need to "share blame" even though you know it was a form of denial.
Not everything in the article resonated with me, but it struck me anyway ( Read more... ) -
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Daddy Games, and Craigslist Monster Furniture
I just emailed my dad, to tell him I just spent an hour crying while laughing and nearly peed my pants. I AM TOTALLY AN ADULT.
To be fair, it was a totally logical email.
I spent-okay well actually like three hours chatting with my friend Lauren over AIM, a lot of which consisted of random non sequiturs screaming in all caps. Because that’s how ( Read more... )
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