I hate those moments when you know the best thing to do would be to just stop talking and yet you don’t. But it is difficult, nearly impossible, for me to stop talking when there is something I can’t stop thinking about. I don’t know if it’s me, him or “us”, but something is different, an uncomfortable sort of different. I can’t tell if it’s the ( Read more... )

* Remember what is important in life ( Read more... )

Sometimes I miss the best friend I used to have. I miss the guy that I could talk to about anything, who would be there no matter what. He was constant in a world that never is. He was my security and my comfort. I don’t miss the romantic side so much anymore, but I miss him greatly as a friend. Sadly, I don’t think that we can ever be friends like ( Read more... )

....yes, I do believe it was. All week I have been trying to keep busy, but today there was no avoiding it. My stepmom has passed away. This isn't the first time I've been forced to deal with death, but it is by the far the hardest. I miss her already. I regret not telling her how much she meant to me. I feel for the rest of my family, especially ( Read more... )

Although summer seems to be slipping away before I've had the chance to enjoy it, I have many things to look forward to in the coming weeks. Read on if you're interested.

Numero uno- roadtrip to Cali to visit In-N-Out Burger and Sonic with Katie and Rebecca. It should be a good time. Hoepfully it is sunshiny so that we can wear sunglasses and listen ( Read more... )

I generally like to think of myself as a person with a fair amount of strength. But, honestly, I just can't take everything that is being thrown at me lately. On top of everything that happened last week, my grandpa just passed away. It really hasn't even hit me yet, but I'm sure that when I go this weekend I will fall apart. I'm not trying to ( Read more... )

A summary of this week so far:

Not enough sleep
Not enough food
Not enough Rebecca
Too much stress
Too much crying
Too much alcohol

I hope next week brings a little more happiness.

Here is a list of 101 things I want to accomplish in life. And I'm serious about these things. Enjoy ( Read more... )

So, this morning I had to wake up early-ish to go cut blackberry bushes from around the Outback Farm. It was muddy and cold, but I got extra credit for ES. And then, I had to come back and finish my paper for English, but I got through that. And I am so excited because I baked a cake from scratch and I think it actually turned out ok (I haven't had ( Read more... )

Today at work I actually had something to do. In fact, I was overwhelmed with things to do. But that's not important as American Idol comes on tonight. Rebecca and I need to get milk and eggs and I have homework to do. So, nothing special-- well American Idol is on, that is SO special! Perhaps tomorrow I will have excitement in my life.