ya know what really gets me? when i see grown men in uniform acting like babies. yesterday morning i was supposed to have 7 rooms show up between 3 and 4 in the morning. well, i held off my audit until 4:30......so they show up at 5:30. o.k., no biggie. probably ran into flight issues. they had been on a 24 hr flight back from iraq. i made ( Read more... )

it's almost 4 am and i have yet to do the audit. it feels so weird. i'm gonna be so behind. i'm supposed to be waiting on a group of possibly military or possibly air crew people. they don't want 7 rooms to roll over to no show, so it was decided that it was easier to hold off on the audit until they were checked in. well, they have until 4:30 ( Read more... )

so yeah, it's time to find another job. and by that i mean, a job in addition to the one i have now. it's that time of year where people are hiring, and apparently, if you have experience waiting tables, some places will hire you on the spot. that's what i'm hoping for anyway. i need more money per month and right now this is the only way to do ( Read more... )

so i started a melo account b/c beth has one and she's boycotting lj. as a matter of fact, she had a really nice update, but it's on pvt or something. boo, you whore ( Read more... )

today's a little better. i think writing about work helped. i didn't realize i wrote that much. damn, i just went to town on that shit. lol.

i have to accept that work is one of those things that i can't change. it's completely out of my hands, out of my control.....there's that word, control. i'm a control freak (ya think?!). i'm trying ( Read more... )

i hatehatehatehatehatehatehateHATE my fucking job. everyone here just suck my dick and fuck off. i'm so sick of not being appreciated. i'm so sick of the fucking bullshit. i'm already sick of writing ( Read more... )

Forgive, sounds good ( Read more... )

ya know, it really does help to talk to other people w/my condition. i need to remember that people w/bipolar disorder really do understand. especially those that have been living w/it for a while. like, mama ceese......she's been living w/it forever ( Read more... )

i thought of you today. yet again. it just makes me so angry.....thinking of you. it makes me feel so helpless. infuriated. hurt. extremely hurt. you were a friend. and friends aren't supposed to hurt one another. especially like that ( Read more... )

in the last several days i've noticed a pattern in my moods. i have one or two good days, followed by several bad ones. lately, the bad days have been really bad. it takes everything in me to not lay in bed. i feel like i have to force myself to walk around and find things to do. something. anything. anything to stop the thoughts. racing ( Read more... )