so the audit is taking for-fucking-ever to finish. not to mention that it's the end of the month, so i have to run everything twice. so it's taking twice as long as it usually would anyway and the program is running so damn slow. i don't mind the end of the month reports, but i do mind that onQ is dragging some serious ass ( Read more... )

so dad called me at like, 4:30 the other morning and was asking me about my xmas plans. i said, well, i wasn't planning on coming home....i like to work the holdiays, if i can help it. *cha-ching* holiday pay. so he proceeds to tell me that him and mom are planning on coming down for a few days over xmas. *does happy dance* are you shitting me ( Read more... )

....indeed ( Read more... )

so get this shit: friday was my last day at the hotel. yeah. they fucking fired me. i still can't fucking believe that shit. but oh fucking well. they can have that shit. and it was a bullshit reason in the first place. the final little "write up" thing or whatever said that i have a "poor working attitude w/others". um, excuse me......but ( Read more... )

.....to write. really, i have been. i find that once i get started, i can't stop. well, most of the time anyway. for the first time in a year and half, i wrote in my written journal. and not just a paragraph.....fucking, a couple pages worth. it helped. for some reason i see myself writing a lot more in the months to come ( Read more... )

....yeah, YOU. *lmao* yeah, yeah, it's been forever i know. i know i know. there's some things i want to say but i think i'm gonna save them for the written journal. i was looking back through it the other day and realized that i had written anything at all in 07 ( Read more... )

.....you're the one stalking my page, and you put yours on pvt? *lmao* *wow*, you just really will never grow the fuck up, will you? *smirk* didn't think so ( Read more... )

....almost lovers always do...so i've decided to have one last go around w/these....whatever you wanna call it. thoughts, feelings, whatev. it doesn't matter. perhaps this will turn into a letter, maybe not. who knows? all i know is that i'm already sick of bottling things up. i need a release. and until i decide what physical release i'm ( Read more... )

so last night was pretty horrible. not only have i been battling w/this whole health thing, but i learn that he was talking to some skank. not surprising. he probably met her the night i got out of the hospital.....in his brand new shirt.

what is it about me that's not fucking good enough? i mean seriously?! i'm tired of not being pretty ( Read more... )

for days i've thought about what i wanted to write. believe it when i say that it could be an entirely new novel. so the next several lines might not flow just right. i'm just picking them out as they come. on a side note, i will be making this entry private ( Read more... )