There are so many books that I am keen to read, but I am not allowing myself to touch any other books until I've finished The Age Of Innoncence. I've read the first chapter and honestly I don't like it at all. It's a very hard read and I cannot seem to focus on the book. It just doesn't interest me at all. Holiday assignment is to finish up to ( Read more... )

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII so today i am in a really good mood and i am not in the mood to write in nice language or whatever so i will just type whatever that comes to my mind because i feel like typing.

( recent things that happened in my life )

This week has been exhausting, both physically and mentally. 4 days of orientation and on the first day I really wanted to listerally, drop dead. Not because everything was different, I mean if I were in MJC and everything were different I would still feel less like dying because at least the cultures are similar. But the culture in CJC is totally ( Read more... )

There is really nothing much I can do.

I only hope for the best.

"Heart weeps.
Head tries to help heart.
Head tells heart how it is, again:
You will lose the ones you love. They will all go. But even the earth will go, someday.
Heart feels better, then.
But the words of head do not remain long in the ears of heart.
Heart is so new to this.
I want them back, says heart.
Head is all heart has.
Help, head. Help heart."

you have to be extremely motivated
the motivation has to come from within

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( Hopeful is a word I overuse... )

In a little bit more than a day, everything will change.
Decisions. Directions. 
What do I really want?

Started work today. I was paid to read + watch movies + anime + have fun on twitter/texting + literally do anything I wish for $6/hr. It is ridiculous, my life: even when I'm working, I'm doing nothing productive. But who cares I should be happy I've got money. /wrists ( Read more... )