My house is cold and empty. Even when my roomates here it seams hallow.
this seams to be a very lonely way to go through life.
And while Ive consceaded myself to it Im not gonna pretend i like it.

whatever i doubt annyone still reads this anyway.

Remember when i had something to say on here everyday. I miss those times.

Started with Me finaly Seeing The Murder City Devils.
And Ends with me moveing. From Great to lame in one fell swoop.

I draw in from the cigaret and watch the sun rise its menthol i dont smoke menthols hell i dont even smoke but then again ive done lots of things tonight i dont do anymore. This is the relapse the tip of the iceburg in the downword spiral my ever lasting search for rock bottom. ive spent the night amongst astranged lost and unrequited loves trying ( Read more... )

I dont hate myself and i dont want to kill myself. im just frustrated with certain sequinces of events that seam to repeat themselfs in my life and the fact that no matter how i play my cards the outcome is always the same. This whole boy meats girl girl says lets be friends boy masterbates in the dark alone ruetine has grown old and stagnant. I ( Read more... )

I do evrreything right and still I get no where fuck all of you any one who ever said it was my lack of canfidence or whatever other excusees you gave me fuck yuo i did everything right and here I am alone again. Fuck Fuck FDuck Fuck Fuck
I often hate the fact im to tenacios to kill myself.

why is it I cant ever get involved in a relationship were the other parties certian aboout what they are looking for and at the same time im certian about what i want from them. is that to much to ask. just one time, even if only for a little while that things would make themselves clear.

hello live journal how are you. im absultly the same as last time i uppdated this thing. nothing has changed the same events keep reacouring just with different faces playing the roles. I need to hire some new writers because my lifes turning into one big rerun.

One and all shall be suject of my wrath. Quake with fear tiny mortals

its dions birthday/destroy joes house because he is mioving out party tomarrow. there will be bands Ugly casanova,jesus cords, murder death kill, drinking , destruction and god knows what else. it will be at the swamp house on wheeler call me for directions 951-1259.