I think it's "that time of the month" again.  So, I'm having a lot of negative feelings.  I did finally take a little control over my life and get my medical records and take them to my new doctor.  By next Wednesday, when my appointment is, I shouldn't be PMSing.  If that's what all this is ( Read more... )

I was watching a show about a man that got hit by a bus, the surgeries all went find, and he's back to work.  The wife wont sign the settlement papers, and so the arbitrator has to figure out why and get it settled.  I turns out the man had three brain surgeries, and a new lust for life, which made him a different person.  The wife wanted back her ( Read more... )

I'm handling my mood swings better or they're calming down, at least this month.  However, I did just down a whole can of olives at 6 am.  Last month they were bad, but I was able to control them, with the montra of "it's only for a week, this will pass in a week ( Read more... )

I'm feeling better today...other than my migraine.  Nothing has changed, today I just don't care, that I'm alone.  I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing.  I'm also on Ultrim, which maybe helping to block my feelings ( Read more... )

I feel like a second class citizen in my own home.  I work hard to keep everything going.  and yet if I need a brake I have to wait until the Master deems me worthy to get any TV time.  I'm in so much pain all the time, I guess my fight is getting low.  The internet only works when it feels like it.  For instance, I planned on posting this last ( Read more... )

This is the third time I tried to post something ( Read more... )

I think I'm loosing my mind.  In May I was very suicidal, about this same time.  A few days later, I couldn't imagine that I felt that way.  Now, I'm there again.  Maybe it's PMS or Menopause.  I just can't handle it.  I wish it would go away ( Read more... )

Our bid was excepted on our first investment, with the new money.  I bought a 3 bedroom in Vernal for $35,000.  It's a fixer upper.   But what do you expect for that kind of money.  Tomorrow, hopefully we'll have a dozer, the last one was sold before we could get the money.

I miss my husband, I want him back!  I hate my life so much that I would commit suicide, but I don't want to cross over with that heavy of a sin.  Then I think, you're guilty if it's in your heart, so it's like I've already, committed suicide, so why not just do it?  It would be easy, I could just take a bunch of Tony's (this impostor I'm living ( Read more... )

I feel so alone, which doesn't make any sense.  I can give you a hundred reasons why I shouldn't feel this way (the love of family, friends, the RV park is on positive income-first time in almost a year, my goal of being out of debt by 7-15-2011 seems obtainable, ect), but I still do.  I feel like an empty shell of a person just going around like a ( Read more... )